ExAm???

My NPCO course final exam is on next fri. Prepared? Just the opposite. Noe nuts abt the theory part. Cannot reallie blame on the OCs. They did their part... just that i din haf the motivation to learn in this course. So different from ard 2 months ago. I was still aiming to be the best trainee at that time. I din onli want to be the best in ops fitness, i wanted to be the best in law studies too. I wanted to prove to others that i am worthy of being in SAF, and not police. So long... i haf been living in this kinda of lifestyle. I wanted others to noe of my existance, want others to look up to me as a capable person. Want them to be proud of my achievements... Y? Am i truely happy leading that kinda life? I feel tired now... i just want to let go of all this ego and thoughts. I need time to rest. I dun feel like competing anymore, i'm sick of it. Now, i just hope that i can live a simple life, with all my family members and frens safe and sound. On the other hand, i will focus my mind on learning new stuffs everyday. There's no end to knowledge out there. The more i dig, the more gullible i feel. There's so much out there.