dreamland

Long absence

2007-07-01T14:44:00.000-07:00

Its been some time since i came to this blog again. Collecting dust. Guess i was too busy with work and etc.

I realised that i was never able to finish my pinang trip which stopped at Day 3. I promise i will start updating again when i have the time.

So how have i been? Basically not much difference. Maybe a bit fairer? Lol... and definitely more money minded.

I find myself physically weaker too. Climbing the stairs really tires me out so easily nowadays. I guess office job is damaging my body.

Found myself hooked to DOTA too... Bad choice.

Entering uni soon. Guess it will be a new start for me. Looking forward to it? Nahz.... I feel so detached from all those books again. Its gonna take a while to really focus my attention on my studies.

My time at Starhub was really good. Thnx to all that has helped to make it possible. I will never forget u guys.

These 6 months has passed by in a flash. Everything ard me is changing... yet i'm not.

Probably the best trip...Part 7

2007-01-21T18:11:00.000-08:00

After the meal at the Kelong, we proceeded down to the beach(the same one that we were at the day before). Along the way, we stopped by at a resort which was still under construction. The view was magnificant there and i wouldn't mind spending more to stay there on my next visit. We reached the beach a further 10 mins later.

Nothing much different from our last visit(duhz!). Just that it is low tide and i can actually walk on the shores. Its so much different from the shores u find in Spore. So clean and soft to walk on. Wat abt our Spore shores? FUll of rubbish...

The few of us were just lazing ard the beach, enjoying the good weather and clean air. Then Rob found a broom(those kind that is used for clearing dried leaves). And we actually had fun with the broom. OMG! How bo liao can we get.

U can see how Ah Pei Rob can be. Wearing singlet and holding the broom proudly in his hands. The legendary Beach Cleaner. More to come from the brotherhood. Its time for our Seany to come up with another spectacular performance "The Great Run". With a broom in his hand... He raced across the beach, with great pace and acceleration. Nothing was gonna stop him and there's only one thing in his mind. NO mERCY! Great skill and technique in the control of the broom and a final uppercut as the finale. Great performance. The performance was terrific. However, no applauses for him. Only sounds of laughter. Thanx Sean... for the laughter. Ah Zhen even commented that he was Zhu Ba Jie...lol.

Somehow that laughter cleared the alcohol in my mind and i was awake and lively again. After some more lazing and chatting at the beach. we proceeded to Ah Chang's house to rest first. It wasn't exactly a rest as we were pitting our footballing skills against each other in WINNING ELVEN 10. Ah Zhen and Changs GF seperated from us as they were tired and wanted to go home. However, b4 they left, they promised to turn up for the Karoke session in the nite. Sean was, again, deep in his thoughts and we couldn't be bothered to ask him anything. LOLx. The game was more important! After an hour or two, we were all getting restless and Ah Change brought us to another hotel, Meila, to spend the nite.

Meila's definitely diff from Laguna. We actually saw LonTongs on the corridors. Ha. Nice. The brotherhood even offered to treat me two plates of LonTongs for my Bday which i flatly refused. R they out of their minds? Lolx. Thru Si Yi's recommendation, we decided to book one room for the 4 of us. Bad decision. The beds were small and the room wasn't big enuff for the 4 of us. Remember, Sean is with us? How can there possibly be enuff space? Anyway, the brotherhood wanted some time for ourselves and we lazed ard in the room, waiting for each others turn to use the bathroom.

During the wait, we were entertained by Sharapova on Supersports and NBA on ESPN. Time creeped by slowly and we were getting hungry. So we decided to explore Pinang without a guide. We had our meal at a nearby fast food restaurant serving fried chicken. The price wasn't exactly cheap at all, which explains the "CROWD" we see in the restaurant. After which, we walked into the shopping district to do some shopping. As usual, eyes were upon us as tho we were some aliens. The DVDS they sell here is really cheap and tempting. But in the end, we did not buy anything. As we moved on, the sky was darkening and we found ourselves near the jetty area. We just lazed ard in the area as we enjoy the small breeze and engage in guy's tok again....

YEAR 2007

2007-01-03T08:52:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!

Year 2006 has been a fruitful and eventful year for me. MOst importantly, i ORD-ed on 10 NOV 2006! Wat can be bigger than that? Ha. Think all the 1986s males will agree with me on that point.

Been so lazy in updating my blog nowadays. Wanted to conitinue my Pinang trip, but think i have to re-think on some parts of the trip and re-organize my thoughts first.

The new year countdown was terrible this year. Spending my time in the LAN shop, getting thrashed by my friends. Stayed till 2am until i was so tired and i just want to return home to sleep. However, those buses were packed with pple and i was waiting at the bus stop, helplessly, for the N6 bus that nv seems to arrive any time. In the end, i was lucky to be sent home by JS's father. Lucky, orelse i would not have been able to report for work the next day.

I realised that my colleagues weren't a bunch of lifeless creatures. They DO have lives and are actually fun people to be with. I so enjoyed their companionship now lo. Maybe i was too troubled in the past to interact with them freely. There were always something in my mind thats bothering me all along. However, i'm glad that its all over and i can really GO CRAZY!

I feel that i am a much happier person now. No probs too big for me! Year 2007 seems to be a positive year ahead for me (n also ARSENAL) and i can't wait to meet new friends.

To my family, Scout mates, THE BROTHERHOOD, ORC NPC, BUNK 4/ NPCO 2/ squad 02/05, Marist buddies, Fellow ex-Monfortians, T29/CJC , Hubbers from DHL, and those friends that have entered my life, I just want to thank all of u for helping me become a better person and weathering the storms with me.

Wishing all a healthy and successful year 2007!

Relaxed

2006-12-17T18:17:00.000-08:00

I have been pondering over so much useless questions for the past week. Feeling distracted at work and often caught daydreaming. My life was in a mess until i heard the story of one of my colleague. She is just 20 yrs old, same as me, with 'O" level qualifiaction, but holds the responsiblility of being the sore breadwinner of the family. I asked the reason y she did not continue her studies after sec sch. The answer was not that she did not perform in her studies. But she had to quit sch to provide for her own younger sister and brother. Giving up her freedom for the ones she loved. Everyday, seeing her at work, being the last one to leave office, somehow inspired me to move on. How can my prob even match up to hers? Respect...

Vexed

2006-12-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

I feeling so vexed now... Although i am slowly adapting to my work life. I am not happy. I have never been good at expressing my emotions. I may look normal on the outside... But its terrible down there in my heart. I do not want to affect others with a black face... I just want to let it out. There are so many questions in my mind that has been troubling me. I din know that i was such a sensitive person... One sentence can change my day. What's happening to me... Prehaps i was too draggy and indecisive. Sometimes i envy Sean...

I'm Lost...

Probably the best trip...Part 6

2006-12-14T19:03:00.000-08:00

The first word i uttered in the morning was "OUCH"... Why did my right leg and butt hurt so much. Why got swelling too... I woke up feeling lost and suffering from a severe hangover. I was wrapped up in at least two layers of blankets and there is one dustbin right beside me. On NO... Wad have i done the previous night? The last thing i remembered was drinking with everyone near the BBQ pit. What happened after that? And wat a good way to wake up on the first day of being twenty years old. At least i was alone... not with someone beside me. LOL. I got up and made my way to the living room where Ah Chang and his friends were awake. I asked Ah Chang wat happened last night and he simply said nuthin had happened. I wasn't convinced at all looking at the state that i woke up in la. Anyway, i was feeling more and more giddy. So, i make my way back to my room to rest some more. Before that, i checked up on the brotherhood that was sleeping in the masterbed room. So sweet, three of them hugging each other on the queen size bed. Lol. Can't be bothered anyway. Went back to sleep.

The next thing i know was three noisy fellows jumping on me and waking me up. Where did they get their energy from early in the morning. We woke up to find the unit empty. Think Ah Chang brought his friends to walk around. After Ah Chang returned, the brotherhood proceeded to the resort main area for our breakfast. I forgot to bring along the breakfast coupons. Instead of telling us to shoo off, the waiter welcomed us in and told us to makan first. Good People. Having a hangover at the wrong time. My appetite was totally spoilt and i just feel like sleeping. We finished our breakfast and proceeded back to the unit to laze ard first before checking out. I intended to rest a bit first before going to the next destination. However, the brotherhood did not intend to let me off on my bday and another round of wrestling and slamming begins. It was so funny when all the blows that was suppose to land on me hit onto Sean instead. Lol. He became my shield against all the blows. Stupid people...

Ah Chang then helped us check out and wanted to bring us to the beach. It was the same beach that we went yesterday but we did not object to the idea. It was actually a good idea to me as i wanted some breeze to wake myself up. Damn those alcohols. BUt before going to the beach, we were going to the kelong to have our breakfast first. The cost of staying one night at the resort was Rp850000= S$130/-. Quite cheap, i guess. It was during the ride that i slowly learnt of what actually happened the previous night... bit by bit. And to start of...it was abt our bro, Sean. Something had happened to him the previous nite... with a certain gal. Ha...

The only ones that were left with the brotherhood were Ah Chang, his GF, Ah Dooi and Ah Zhen(pardon me, i forgot her name and was reminded by the brotherhood of her name). Oops. Lousy memory. I was feeling so giddy when i was in the vehicle and opened up the window to freshen myself up. It was then i heard constant mumbling from the back seats. "Seng, y r u sitting there?", followed by grins from robbie and soon hui, with Seany feeling uncomfortable. WTH? Y can't i seat in the middle row? Crazy pple. It was only during the time when Ah Chang stopped over to pay the bill then i knew wat was going on. Sean initiated a talk with Ah Zhen and even asked for her handphone number... Wow Wow... Wat am i missing on man? Sean handing over his phone to Ah Zhen and asking for her number... Wat's going on??? So many questions in my mind that i can't possibly ask him in the vehicle. But i seem to be able to grasp a bit. Sean got hooked...

I took another look at Ah Zhen, who was the one that managed to hook away the spirits of my dear brother. Okay onli wat, plain JANE Lo. Ha... to me, i think it wasn't the beauty of her that attracted Sean , but the simplicity that she displayed which can never be found in Singaporean Girls. Faced with complicated girls in life, it would be natural for any guy to be interested in someone that was out of the norm. The same thought emerged in the brotherhood's mind. Next time, we are gonna find an Indonesian Girl as our wives. Nothing big for me tho, my family started from this kind of relationship too. LOL. Ah Zhen had no knowledge of English, speaks Bahasa Indonesia, understands Teochew but couldn't speak them and knows a bit of Chinese. It was difficult to communicate with her but it was precisely the actions of trying to communicate that amuses us. Think this kind of girl would have attracted any Singaporean guys ba... So simple and nice-natured. Not the kind of girls in Singapore that would play hard to get. She was more direct. Maybe and just maybe, if i did not have someone in mind already, i would have, similiarly, been hooked ba. But knowing that my dear Seany baby had already set his sights on her, it wasn't right to get myself involved. I believed that applies to the rest of the brotherhood as well. Anyway, it was a shocking to me to see Sean having so much courage in front of a girl. Okay~! Way to GO!!!

After a 20 mins trip, we arrived at the kelong which was a different one that we have been to. The view was terrific. As the brotherhood had no appetite and wanted a walk around the kelong. We seperated from Ah Chang and the rest to have our own brotherhood talks. Wat a great timing for that. I had alot of questions to ask my dear Seany. On our way, Sean was humming the out-of-tune champions league song... Well.. We arrived at one small hut where it was set up just for the 4 of us. Perfect place for grilling. It was there where Rob gave an account of what happpened last night and the heroics of Seany under the influence of alcohol. I regretted getting drunk the previous night man. It was suppose to be the best night of the trip and i had to go MIA. OH NO. Anyway, the brothers gave full suppport to our dear Sean in his pursuit of LOVE:>

We joined back with Ah Chang and the rest who were still waiting for their food to be served. As usual, the brothers acted with initiative in helping Sean pick the nicest seat. Right beside Ah Zhen. Horns on our heads. We started conversing with each other and i even assisted Sean to ask Ah Zhen whether she got BF ornot. Wat's her reply... NO! SEAN's life brightened up upon hearing that. Ah Chang then asked us who Ah Zhen resembles... from left, right, up down, the brothers could not make out who she look like. Onli Sean did... HAHA. Affinity! Ah Zhen then gave an evaluation of the brotherhood's looks and even gave grading...lol. The results stays within the brotherhood.LOL. The restaurant played popular chinese songs for us and it helped to lighten up the atmosphere more. Although the food wasn't exactly fabulous, but the atmosphere was great and we enjoyed our time there. I stared at those Gong Gong that had caused me my night...i dun dare to touch them. FOr now. It was amusing to hear those conversations in Teochew that we converse in, but the rest of the brotherhood dun understand. At least Ah Zhen taught Sean how to say stupid in Teochew. But he doesn't seem to be able to pronouce that well. Well...

After the meal, we took some photos in the area.

In the first pic, Ah Zhen is the one in yellow and the one in pink is Ah Chang's GF. And wat am i doing. closing my eyes when taking photo.
In the 2nd pic, the one on the right is Ah Chang and the one on the left in Ah Dooi(Mr Nice Guy). I was having fun with those dogs in the Pics. So Cute rite. After which, we proceeded to the beach...

Probably the best trip...Part 5

2006-12-06T19:08:00.000-08:00

Continuation of Day 2

After the sumptuous meal, we make our way to AGRO beach resort which was just ten minutes away. This place seems a lot more high class than the AGRO resort we r currently staying at. Clean beach we have here. The breeze here was terrific and the brotherhood hop around to take photos and haf fun at the beach.

Sir Sean Loke in the first photo. He just luv to pose for shots.lol. Both my cousins, Ah Cheng and Jing Qing in the 2nd. Si Yi and her husband in the third. This is probably another resort that i will consider for my next trip to TJ Pinang, as a group. Anyway, after all the photo-taking, we returned back to AGRO resort for the BBQ. Ya...food again... we just ATE at the Kelong not more than an hour ago. Getting fatter and fatter.

After the 20mins Sauna session, we arrived back at the resort. It was still early for the BBQ. Ard 5.30pm Indonesian time. Thus, the brotherhood decided to recee the resort to past time. The resort wasn't as big as we thought, but later on, Jing Qing told me that the part we were staying in was only a small part of the resort. The sky was darkening as we walked aimlessly ard the resort. To our surprise, we seemed to be the only ones staying at this part of the resort. We finally stopped over at the main lobby area where all the entertainment equipments were. We actually wanted to use the table soccer, thinking it was free. Neh... they charge by hour. In the end, we settled for pool. Aiyoh, i'm so sick of that le. We played pool when we meet up in SPORE. So Sianz. Just as we were abt to start... the lights went off. Apparently, there was a break down in electrical supply in the region. Thus, we soughted refuge in the shop just beside the pool table. And we saw the girl with ADIDAS bag again. So chio. Lol. The lights came on 10 minutes later and we resume gameplay. The quality of the table and ball was terrible as the two games we played dragged and dragged. At this point of time, something seems to be playing my stomach too... Damn. Must be those GONG GONG taking revenge. I couldn't even aim straight. All there was in my thoughts were, FINISH the game and head straight to the toilet.

After 2 boring games, we headed straight back to the resort. Apparently, Ah Chang had brought along his GF, his friend, Ah Dooi and another special girl, Ah Zhen to the resort to join up with us. When the brotherhood arrived back at the resort, i really buai tahan liao. I headed straight for the toilet, ignoring whoever i saw. One day, i must take revenge on those GONG GONGs... Anyway, after the unloading session, Ah Chang called me over to intro me to his friends. At first i thought of introducing myself as SENG or SK or watever, then i think back... no point. Ah Chang already called me Xiao Di in front of them just now. Heck la, i just intro myself as Xiao Di lo. I think i was quite insincere la, din even pay attention to their names when they intro themselves. After lazing ard for another 1/2 hour and slamming me in the masterbed room, the BBQ finally started. And my stomachache continued.

The stomachache is really causing an upset to my appetite. Hardly any food can enter my mouth la. Felt so depressed by the pain. Haiz, in the end, sit at one corner to stone while looking at the others having fun. Terrible feeling. After that, Jing Qing and Si Yi suggested bringing out the alcohol to drink and i agreed. Since no food can enter, a bit of alcohol may actually help to kill the germs or simply, to pass time. But i was wrong la... In the end, i drank more and more.... and became more and more drunk. The first bottle of VODKA was still all right and i was still sober enough to know wat i was doing and saying. I saw how Jing Qing tried to poison SEAN and Michael with his mixing of VODKA and 7-UP. Slowly, bit by bit... i lose my senses and starts crapping. Si Yi was busy pouring alcohol for Annie, wanting her to get drunk. Ha... SO funny looking at her getting all high with red cheeks and toking nonsence. It wasn't long when the VODKA finished and Jing Qing suggested drinking the Scotch Whisky. Wrong move... If i had stopped him. I wouldn't haf gotten myself drunk. Starting to get high, i agreed to it and here comes the killer. I remembered drinking a few cups...then helping Annie drink one cup of VODKA, toking non-stop...then.........(black OUT)........

The rest of the entry are told to me by the brotherhood as i was simply knocked out and the next thing i knew was i was on the bed the next morning. While we were in the midst of drinking, i suddenly got up, walked a few steps and vommitted near the main door of the unit. Then i walked forward a few steps and fell sidewards onto the floor near the start of the slope leading to the unit. The brotherhood, which was near the entrance quickly reacted to what they saw and robbie "flew" to my rescue...This is wat he say la... The rest of the brotherhood then helped me up and brought me to one corner where they washed my head with water and Jing Qing massage my head. After which, i was brought in to the room where Ah Mei used a wet towel to wipe my face and Micheal had to put the dustbin right below my face. Rob was outside helping Si Yi to clear my mess. OopS... Paiseh. What a good way to celebrate my birthday. Getting drunk. Thats the end of the story for me. So embarrasing.

But all has not ended yet for the brotherhood. After clearing up my mess and seeing that i was all right. The brotherhood continued on with the drinking near the entrance area. Sean got more and more high and his usual piece of shit finally comes out one by one. He called my Si Yi a bad influence and told everyone to keep quiet, then commented, "Nu Hai Zi Bu Ke Yi He Zui Jiu" in his well-spoken CHINESE. More shit to come from him as he laughed out of the blue and the alcohol sets in. Sean then know that he was going to lose control to the "beast" within him and asked Micheal to follow him into the room for 5 mins. Inside the room, he let loose wateva was within him and onli Micheal knows what happened inside. After the 5 mintues, Sean managed to calm down a bit and proceeded outside with Micheal. Freaky! That 5 mins actually helped...lol. Si Yi and her family then left the unit. Only Ah Chang and his friends stayed behind to accompany us.

After which, the cheeky Sean materalised and he sat beside Ah Zhen. Sean then started a conversation with her in his Chinese, with Soon beside, quite high, and ROB watching over Sean, in case he say anything stupid. Sean and Ah Zhen hit it off quite well and Ah Zhen even asked for Sean's handphone number. SURPISED? Ha... that probably nv happened to him b4 in SPORE. The brotherhood was impressed with Ah Zhen, mainly coz of her simple-natured personality and behaviours. However, it was more than impressed for our SEANY BABY and i dun haf to carry on from there ba... i think... LOL. But surely, Ah Zhen has left a lasting impression in Sean's heart. Too bad i wasn't at scene and din haf an opportunity to tok to her like how the other guys did. Ha. For the details of what they tok abt, i've no idea. I din even know her name was Ah Zhen at that point of time. LOL.

The brotherhood then had a heart-to-heart tok with Ah Chang for the rest of the night. It was getting late and it was also time to retire. However, Sean was still feeling energetic and memories of the day comes back to haunt him in his drunken state. He started swimming on the floor with the breast stoke he was taught. The he tried to strangle Robbie on the bed. And the best move of the night, he challenged the brothers to a hold breath competition right on the bed. LOL. Ha... that defeat really left a scar in his mind. After much nonsences from him, the brotherhood finally got tired and the 3 of them shared the master bed and slowly dozes off...

Pain...

2006-12-05T06:38:00.000-08:00

Stomachache killing me... must be the seafood from Marina yesterday... Ouch. Sore throat and COugh too... Din noe i was so infectous... n i had to go thru the training so early... cut me some slack. Last Tue interview, wed 1st day, thur start taking call and today learnt more advanced applications. Well DOne. At least thinking of Sean... makes me cheerful for the day.

Probably the best trip...Part 4

2006-12-03T18:54:00.000-08:00

Continuation of Day 2

After we checked out from Laguna, we waited for the transport from AGRO resort to come and fetch us. Wat excellent service man... Find me one resort in S'pore that send their drivers to fetch u anyway on the island to the resort. Jing Qing then became our escort and the brotherhood boarded the vehicle as we head to ur next destination. The road to AGRO was long and winding, with lotsa bends. Ard 1/2 hour, we reached our destination, AGRO resort. We were treated like Kings when we reached the counter. Wet towers and Ginger Teas. While Jing Qing was helping to do the check ins, the brother hood focused their attentions on another girl carrying an ADIDAS bag. All wolves, including myself... but we din dare to approach her la... all toks but no actions. Anyway, the vehicle then drove us up to the doorsteps of our unit.

The unit comprises of 3 rooms with a living room/kitchen.(The living room and kitchen are combined). The rooms are spacious enough and it looks like a good place to just sit down and relax over the weekend. The place is so big that wateva land we can see from our unit, they belonged to AGRO. No wonder we need to call transport to fetch us to different parts of the resort. They even haf a menu to show us the activities that we can do there. Rob got so thrilled with the renting of buggys which i am seriously not interested in. The prices of renting those equipments are quite similiar to what u see in s'pore. s$3/- per hour for the renting of bicycles. Normal. we decided to visit the spa parlor which is situated at the swimming pool.

We had a tour inside the spa parlor. It was quite classy and the mere sight of the jacuzzi tempted us to jump in right away. However, i looked at the brochure and stared at the BIG numbers on the cost... Rp 8000000 for 2 persons... which means ard s$130 for 2 persons... Too ex. So in the end, we returned to our unit to pick up our swimming trunks and headed back to the swimming pool. Not for the jacuzzi, but the FREE swimming pool. So LOSER... lol. The brotherhood had real fun at the swimming pool. It was real funny looking at SEANY doing his breast stroke. U all saw b4 how a whale dived into the water? If not... just take a look at our SEANY! Full of strength in his strokes and the conc he put in with each "DIVE"... and the splashing of water after each dive. Real tidal waves he created. We had to teach him the proper way of swimming... not diving. And Jing Qing was in one corner laughing at Sean's great swim. Those staffs at the swimming pool must haf laughed their hearts out looking at those morons in the water. Then Sean had to lose his spectacles while swimming. He said that he left it on the edge of the pool and it PROBABLY dropped into the water. So it's time to activate the navy unit to do a search. And who did we haf in the navy unit... Our DEAR MICHEAL. Surprisingly... he found the specs.... WOW! And Sean decided to waive off all our gambling debts after our long brotherhood persuasions. After which we decided to have a hold-breath competition.
Round 1- Sean Vs Soon. Navy Won.
Round 2- sean vs rob. Rob Won.
Round 3- Sean Vs Seng. Seng Won.
Pathetic sia. Sean lose back to back 3 times. This competition left a deep scar in his mind as he dreamt abt it in his sleeps. After which, we had some beer and dried ourselves up b4 heading back to the unit.

It was back in the unit where we met some other new friends. Si Yi brought her whole family down and AH Mei brought 2 of her female friends down as well. I can only remember one of their name as Annie, while the other one was soft spoken and we din catch her name. Si Yi suggested eating seafood and the brotherhood agreed to it even tho we were still quite full from the Ba Ku Teh we had for lunch. So we squeezed ourselves into the vehicle for our trip to the beach/kelong.

Can u imagine how squeezy it was inside the vehicle? Look at the pic. Headcount- 12 persons in a vehicle which was only suppose to carry 8 persons. Well done. After an unintended Sauna, we finally arrived at the Kelong abt 25 mins away from AGRO.

The one in black is my dear Ah Mei. And i'm covered. WTH. Lousy photography.... or issit i'm just short... Oh Well. The view at the kelong was simply magnificant. Btw, Ah Mei is attached as the driver appears to be courting her. No chances for the brotherhood. Do they care in the first place? Think they r thinking of my nephew. Anyway, we had a good meal of seafood comprising of Chilli crabs, GONG GONG, Kang Kong, Calamari etc... Btw, in case u wonder wats a gong gong, its some type of shelled type seafood... altho it can be used to describe our dear SEANY too. I love to eat gong gong since young. The last time i ate it was 10 yrs ago and i haf been dreaming of eating it all these years. However, my body doesn't seem to welcome those Gong Gong anymore as i get a stomachache after that. The Calamari was probably the best that i haf eaten so far. Golden yellow on the outside and the meat is not overly cooked. 10 points! The brotherhood din converse much with the 2 other female friends. Maybe they r too soft spoken ba...

To be continued...

Some delays

2006-11-30T06:33:00.000-08:00

To the brotherhood, there will be delays to the next post of Tj Pinang. I will prob conitinue on with it on my next off day which i dun even noe when. Most likely on a weekday bah.

Ya... i found a job le. Working at starhub, Har Par Centre Level one. Clemenceau Ave. Near to my previous workplace. Pays quite high. S$7/- per hour, one day 8.5 hrs. Which adds up to ard S$60 a day. Plus OT and public holiday... quite a sum. But ah, all my weekends and public holidays will be burnt sia. I dun care much abt christmas or new year eve. No one to spend it with me too. But i do care a lot abt chinese new year. I'm not gonna waste my next chinese new year working. Somemore, i'm getting so stressed looking at the monitor screen with so many windows. Headache. But i will not gif up.... Its not me to quit after a bit of hardship and it would be unfair to say that the job dun suits me when i dun noe how it functions yet. GAnbatte!

Probably the best trip... Part 3

2006-11-26T19:43:00.000-08:00

Day 2

Rise and shine. It's another new day of excitement for the brotherhood. As expected, all of them are still sleeping. Nid me to wake those lazy bums up. After some washing up, we proceeded down to the hotel restaurant to enjoy our breakfast. Breakfast was the usual type, fried rice, fried mee plus green bean soup. It wasn't exactly tasty compared to the meals we had yesterday. After the short meal, we proceeded up to the rooftop of Laguna Hotel. Magnifact. The view was terrific. Probably b'coz there aren't much tall buildings in TJ Pinang and Laguna happens to be one of the highest, we had a pretty good view of the city and port area.

In case u r wondering y the photos are in black/white, its not done on purpose to show how old the place is. I accidentally changed the camera special effects without knowing it. Too bad. But i guess it does add an effect to the place.

After which, Si Yi called us to come down to the lobby as she had already gotten the transport to bring us to the next destination, my Big Aunt's house cum coffeeshop. The brotherhood had expected that the transport was gonna be some mini bus or "broken" car. Shocking. We saw five riders on their bikes, with their engines roaring away and signalling for us to get onto the bike. Haha, it could have been a shock to Sean who has nv rode on a bike as a pillion before. Also, the motorbikes here do not have boxes like wat you see in SPORE. The back is empty and if u lose ur balance, u will fall back. I'm okay with it tho as i'm used to taking bikes. The ride was a short one and i arrived at my Big Aunt's coffeeshop. Due to the fact that i was away for the past 10 years, no one actually recognized me at all. Only after my self intro, my cousin, Ah Hong, recognized that i am Xiao Di( my family members and relatives calls me by that). Subsequently, the rest of the brotherhood arrived and i left them with my Si Yi while i proceeded up to visit my Big Aunt.

Afterwhich, the brotherhood got to meet their 2nd female friend in TJ Pinang. As we were sitting down at the coffeeshop joking abt getting a wife in Indonesia, Ah Hong butted in and insisted in showing us her daughter, who was supposed to be quite pretty. Even for me as an "uncle", i did not recall how she looked like. She was ard 5 yrs old when i last saw her. I was ard 10 yrs old at that time ba. Si Yi told me that long ago, i had actually gave the gal a nickname of "devil" as she was so mischiveous and always disturbing me. We then walked to Ah Hong's house which was only a short distance away. Similiarly, like Ah Mei, my nephew refused to come down as she was shy with meeting some hunks(...:P) Eventually, she was forced to come down by her mum to greet us. Pardon me, i did not even know her name... ha... wat a good uncle i was. Btw, her name is Pena and she did gave a surprise to the brotherhood. She actually looked quite good and the brotherhood can't help throwing glances at her. She was even too shy to shake the hands of the brotherhood. No chance for Micheal as she is much taller than him. LOL. And she even refuses to acknowledge me as her uncle...:<

After a short while, we bid farewell to her and she hid back to her room almost immediately. Ha. As usual, the main topics is on her again. Y am i surprised? And almost instinctively, we linked her with Sean again... Ha, first it was Ah Mei, now Pena... wat's next? But i will not let him touched both of them... Dun want Sean to lay his dirty hands on them. Joking... The excitement of meeting a new girl did not die down as the only topic for the brotherhood was abt Pena. Haiz, so childish. If the girl had been someone not related to me by blood... guess i would haf joined in with the conversation too. Ha. Anyway, my Si Yi had actually wanted us to have our lunch there, but already sold out. Thus, we make our way to the Ba Ku Teh stall to have our lunch.

Si Yi and Ah Hong led us thru the back alleys of the city area as a shortcut to reach the stall. It was an interesting experiences as the back alley is a wet market by itself. Dun expect finding dead chickens here. If u want to have a chicken back home for dinner, u can onli purchase a "LIVE" one. The quills they sell here also comes in differnet colours... how did they do that anyway? After a five minutes walk over muddy patches on the ground, we finally reached the stall. The stall owner happens to be a friend of my mum and the Ba Ku Teh they sell here is terrific. The soup was very thick and we got all sorts of pig organs thrown into the soup. Best, free re-fill. The brotherhood wasted the food again and it is funny lookin at Sean trying his very best to please Ah Hong... Ulterior motive. How does stacking ur cup above others please her and thinks of u as her future son-in-law. Lol. How creative can Sean get and how bitchy can the brotherhood be... Anyway, while we were having the meal, we were "disturbed" by malay youngsters coming into the shop with guitars and their vocals. This is a common scene in TJ Pinang. But since they are working their asses off, and not begging like those monks in SPORE. Y not gif a bit to show our appreciations?

After the meal, we met up with Si Yi's eldest son, Jing Qing, who was "tasked" by his mum to help us in checking out of Laguna and proceeding to AGRO resort which was situated abt 30 KM from the city.

To be continued...

Probably the best trip... Part 2

2006-11-25T20:06:00.000-08:00

Continuation of Day 1

Arriving at Si Yi's house, the brotherhood got to meet the first female friend in Tj Pinang, my cousin, Ah Mei. She was so shy, shutting herself behind the doors after the introduction and requires Si Yi to begin her rattling before she finally comes out to walk ard and do some house works. It was the usual scene of the brotherhood linking Sean with a new girl. Ha. But i dun really allow that tho... She's my cousin leh... Like a real sister to me. Meanwhile, Si Yi was trying to on the Karaoke Set to play some "modern" music and we have Ah Chang all getting ready to go to the only KFC in TJ Pinang. Yes... they do have KFC there. I wasn't that enthu abt going to the KFC tho. I've just ate only less than 2 hours ago. Ha... but nvm, just follow along. After bidding farewell to Si Yi, we proceeded to KFC where Ah Chang promised that there will be young girls at that time. He was wrong. The KFC was filled with families, not much young pple ard in the first place. Blame it on bad luck. The KFC could possibly be the only place in Pinang that resembles what u will find in mainland Spore. Guess the price of the food there... It cost only Rp5000 for a meal consisting of, one rice, one chicken piece and one regular drink. Rp5000=S$0.90. Thats like freaking cheap lo. In the end, we sort of wasted the food as we can't squeeze any more into the already filled stomach. Dun noe abt Sean la, think he and Ah Chang still can carry on. The chilli sauce taste completely different from the sweet and not-so-hot chilli u find in Spore. And Sean had to do something stupid again... LOL. Making smileys using chilli Sauce...

After two meals, we can barely move and it was time for the brotherhood's first massage. We went back to the shopping mall for the massage session from wat i know, it cost ard S$12 for a 1.5 hour session. Cheap. The "usually daring" brotherhood became shy little boys as we wait for the massage session to begin. Finally, those massage ladies came in and took their picks. Ha. I would not mention much abt their professionalism... but they were one naughty bunch. I do not know much abt the others, but the one attending to me stretched out for my butt straight from the beginning. Felt so "molested". Maybe the one beside me (soon) felt shiok la. Btw, the curtains were opened, so the brotherhood can see each other. The massage ladies converse only in Malay and the only one in the group that can understand the language is Ah Chang. He giggled with them as they shared some "dirty" jokes in which he does not wish to reveal much. Probably, they r laughing at the body language of the 4 virgins lying down on the mats. WATEVA! This is our first time anyway. Couldn't care much. Seriously, i wasn't really enjoying myself. But our dear Seany truely enjoyed himself with all his moanings. Ha... Maybe the only shiok part for me was having the lady stand on my back to massage. Truely refreshing. Btw, altho the ladies seemed to be a naughty bunch, this place is "Clean". No sexual activities. And our dear Mr Attitude-problem, Soon, got a new name for himself. The ladies asked for Soon's name and the name Soon Hui became ShiZuZuHui... to save the hassle, they just gave him a new name, Micheal. Ha. I will use that name for the rest of the blog entry.

After the massage, the brotherhood began to feel lethagic and Ah Chang dropped us off at the hotel for a break. The intended break became a gambling session for the brotherhood. Who would have expected Sean to be so skilled in gambling. OMG... can u believe this? He won a total of Rp200000 in a short span of 1.5 hrs. Fascinating. No points for guessing who is the ultimate loser. Its Micheal!!! Me and Rob sort of break even with minimal loss. Sean was on a winning streak and nuthin seems to be stoppin him from winning. It was the usual "NO MERCY" from him again. He got a hidden agenda bringing those cards along in the first place. Btw, gambling and prostitution are banned in Indonesia... No floating casino or prostitution dens. After the gambling session, we proceeded for dinner as Ah Chang fetched us to the famous food square. I remembered visiting the place 10 yrs ago and it has not changed a single bit. The food stalls are lined up in a way like the oldern style Chinatown. As we did not know what to order, Ah Chang helped to do the ordering. Well done.. He ordered one full table of food. Oh well, we wasted the food again. Ha. But the foods were terrific and we enjoyed very much.

After the sumptuous dinner, we arrived at the seaside to chill with "Live" Karaoke in the background. Shucks... the singings were horrible. Ha. Forget abt the background music. The brotherhood carried on with our usual "grilling" session of each others love life. AGAIN? When will we eva be sick of it? And the main topic for the night and probably, for this trip, is Sean again. Its becoming such a routine to ask abt Sean's love life. Dun blame us for being so nosey, but his experiences can actually be made into a DRAMA! While sipping the diluted Heineken, Rob was enjoying his precious and cheap find in Pinang. WATCH FOR UR HEALTH!!! The inclusion of Ah Chang livened up the atmosphere as he shared with us his experiences. "DO NOT BETRAY UR BRUDDERS" I will remember that. Nothing can break the brotherhood. Our bonds strengthened after the heart-to-heart tok and Sean began to do his "Bo-Da-Bo-Lan-**" thing. Lol. He nv fails to amuse me when he is high. We just came on pouring the beer into his glass the minute he finishes his. Maybe b'coz of the atmosphere and the bit of alcohol, i start to think of my current situation. It could well be another one-sided thing again... Sigh, when can i eva get out of all these? I get so tensed up and nervous when i see her everytime. And most importantly, i do not want to lose her as a friend. Her friends probably know that i am chasing her and possibly, she knows it best too. This is going nowhere...
We chilled there for ard 2hours and were starting to feel tired from the long day of MAKAN. The sleepy faces of Micheal and Robbie probably showed exactly wat i mentioned. We were so tired that we din even notice that we were using the LADIES all this while... Holy Shit. LOL. No wonder those females and AH KUAs stared at us. Ha. It was ard 2am when we finally decided to return to the hotel.

Back in the hotel room , me and Micheal was so mesmerized by the ESPN broadcaster, PAULA. Ha. And we were toking abt how BIMBO JAIME Yeo was on the talkshow. Feeling awake suddenly, both of us continued the heart-to-heart tok. Whateva was said stays in that room. By this time, it was already lights out for the other two fellows.... Another fun day awaits us and for Sean, it was a special one. Well, for me, it was one of embarrassment....

To be continued.

Probably the best trip...

2006-11-25T06:44:00.000-08:00

Day 1

It was a surprise for Sean to turn up at Bedok MRT station on time. Me and Rob were fearing for the worst as to the possibility of a Pang Seh by our beloved Seany Baby. He did turn up, but did not seem to have high expectations for the trip... maybe it was more of a bo pian for him to tag along. Lol. But i think he got more than what he expected in the end! As it was still early, we decided the take the bus 35 to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal. The bus nv seem to come any earlier for us as we wait like idiots for 30+ minutes. Forgot abt that Soon... He woke up late... as always. In the end, that sleepy head got there earlier than us. The three of us were nearly late and just barely make it in time for the 1050hrs boat ride. The four of us then joined up with my auntie to take the boat ride together to Tj Pinang. We had actually intended to shop at the duty free shop with ease. But not possible, we only had 10 mins. Ha. In the end, we got a GOLDEN VODKA (which Rob like so much la) and a SCOTCH Whisky. And i din expect those 2 drinks to bring abt my embarrassment later on :P

So we were set for the trip on a long 2 hours boat ride. In actual fact, i did not haf much recollections of the place altho its my hometown. The last time i went there was ten years ago. Time cripped by slowly and the 4 of us started to lose patience. SO we climbed up to Level 2 deck to chill out. As usual, the main topics does not seem to shift away from our SEANY BABY... Abt him and his love life... who he is going out with... And how LOUD SOON HUI was... LOL. Dun wanna go into the details. SENSITVIE. Rob was enjoying his... Something he cannot do freely in SPORE :P And of course, they ask abt me too... But i wasn't going to tell them much and i din. So unfair rite?

After the 1h45min boat ride, we finally set foot on Tj Pinang. For me, it was quite a terrible culture shock. Maybe i was too used to the prosperity of Spore. I started to regret bringing my brudders to this place. It was a bit too old for them ba. Maybe i was thinking too much... MAYBE. Met up with our GUIDE, AKA cousin, Ah Chang. Pity him sia, due to miscom, he waited there for 3 hours le. Point to note, Indonesia is slower than Spore by an hour... but seriously, i feel it is slower by 2 hours by more. Looking at those outdated vehicles, i feel like i was thrown back at least 30 yrs ago. Ha... being the host...and grumbling. This does not bode well for the trip. I would say it wasn't the best to the start of a trip. Primarily bcoz we were shocked of the state of which the city was in. We proceeded to Laguna Hotel, which was situated in the city area. For me, the room was 2 stars ba... bad. And we got the best window view... a good look at the rubbish and debris of the hotel. Lol. Anyway, i shared my room with my long-time Gay partner, Soon, and the other 2 unkept fellows share the other room. Upon closer look at the rooms, i spotted so much Xiao Qiangs crawling ard... One star. Thankfully, all 4 of us were not that particular abt the conditions of the hotel as we were more focused on travelling ard than stay in the hotel and rot there... with all the Xiao Qiangs.

My auntie, commonly known as Si Yi, then helped us do the administative stuffs like checking in and changing of currency. She did a good job and bcoz of her money management, the brotherhood did not seem to have the worry of thinking abt money shortages. Moving on, Ah Chang brought us to his friend's shop just across the street from the hotel. That guy's a surfer dude and helps out in the shop in the morning. It was truely going back to oldern times, where their food stalls resembles those u see in Pulau Ubin. I guess the first morale booster came from there. The food was truely magnificant. Dun expect clean food. Ha. In Tj Pinang, there is no pre-prepared food like those in food court. U order, then they start cooking. All the while, i was looking in the direction of the kitchen, but none of the food came out from there. The foods actually came from the entrance. Surprised. There is no gas stove watsoever. The food were all cooked using the traditional charcoal and charcoal stove. No wonder all the food taste so different. NICE! Especially the stingray and chilli. Ha. Drooling now as i recall the taste. Most importantly... it's too cheap to be true. Ard S$20 for the whole lunch for 7 persons. Sean got poisoned with sugar... haha. Sugar Rush. His "Teh Guni" was freaking sweet. The brotherhood enjoyed the lunch.

Ah Chang then brought us for a tour ard the city area. Tj Pinang is definietely not the best place for shopping. But as we walked ard... we slowly adapted to the slow pace of the city and enjoys it. We went to the shopping malls and look ard at the products. On average, the price of the products is half of wat u will expect in spore. But dun get conned by Adidas bags selling at S$6. "CHIONG" one.. altho look so real. Something that interest guys is the price of VCDS and games they are selling at. Rougly S$1-2 for a VCD or game. Thats like 6-7 times cheaper than wat u expect in Spore. Ha... and it is interesting looking at the expressions of Indo-Chinese girls that saw us. We were like so "Alien" to them la. So astonished to see us. Those girls r so shy one... look at us alr then hide one corner, giggling away. LOL. Maybe we r like F4 la... Ha. Joking onli. There was not much to shop anyway and we decided to proceed to Si Yi house for a while. It was so convenient for us as Ah Chang drives us ard the place for the whole trip in Pinang.

To be continued...

So Long...

2006-11-03T19:42:00.000-08:00

I suppose its collecting dust here. Been so lazy for the past few months to even log on to take a look at my blog. Realised that there were problems with the wallpaper and the tagboard. Guess i will get it fixed soon... and i mean real SOON.

I'm gonna ORD next fri and will be officially promoted from PNS(F) to PNSmen. I am supposed to feel happy and relieved over the freedom i will get after finishing NS. However, i feel so lost instead. To begin with, my sleeping habits will be one thing that will be hard to adjust back. My main concern now will be the inflow of money into my bank accounts. Since last month, i have not been receiving any allowance, which means a constant outflow of money. I have been to several MLM companies in recent weeks to listen to their plans. However, i doubt that i will join them.

Uni admission starts next Aug, which means i have at least 9 months to work starting from now. Up till today, i still can't make up my mind on which field of studies to pursue. Initially, i was thinking that the 9 months will aid me in my decision making. However, i start to realise recently that the uni cert is there for u to gain credibility only. It does not gurantee u a good job watsoever. Going into science will be suicidal unless i want to go back into the education sector. Guess i will try for business in uni. I think it will be more useful in the future.

I will be leaving S'pore for Tj Pinang with the brotherhood on 16th Nov- 20th Nov for holiday. Then i will be flying off to thailand on 15th Dec- 18th Dec for another holiday with my Sec sch buddies. I'm looking forward to those trips. Time to relax first!

Sleepless nights

2006-06-21T03:45:00.000-07:00

The World Cup is really killing me. Look at those panda eyes... My life seems to have just changed to, WORK SLEEP EAT SOCCER. OMG. Wasting my mornings sleeping and creeping out of my bed every night... Can't even cheer out when my team scores(my family sleeping)... eating those junk food that somehow miracously increased my weight... getting headaches from those alcohol and boring soccer matches... and LOSING MONEY. Lucky i am not so ambitious as to bet in three digits or more. Believe the ball is round. No definite results until the final whistle. So far, there are quite a lot of surprises in this WC. Ghana beating Czech. Still can't accept that. All the best to France.

Just had my ORD shoot last tue. Was so nervous and tense during the dry practice. My whole right hand was shaking non-stop throughout. Think its inborn. My aim was simply lousy and off-focus. Was even critised for my gripping and aiming. i was even expected by others to fail. Totally demoralised. Shooting's not my forte man! The wait at the new range was long. Idle mind's a devil's playground. Keep having thoughts of me failing and wat follows after the result. The long wait finally ended after 3 hours as i step into the range. Freaked out. I fired my first 10 shots(practice). 5 holes..... :< Then the real test began. I kept on telling myself to calm down and finish off my rounds. Aim and shoot. No hesitation. Somehow, my confidence grew and i found my momentum. I looked anxiously as my target was brought nearer to me. Positve. $200/- more for next month. LOL. Miracle.

Getting more and more demoralised by my Scout unit. Their totally heck care attitude is driving me crazy. Sometimes i just wonder why i am wasting my time on these bunch of people. Kids nowadays are getting so dependant and "Gu-Niang". Society's prob, as wat our dear derek has mentioned. There's definitely some truth to it. I feel so insecured having the thought that this new generation are the pple that is going to support the country. Ended up shortening my course and spending my time with Daniel and YC. Shopping. Something i nv enjoyed b4.

This yr Father's Day was quite meaningful to me. I wanna say thank you to my DAD for all the hard work he has put in for the family all the years. We enjoyed, suffered and endured together as a family, especially during that period of hardship. I really appreciated it. Thank You.

Had been pondering abt lotsa stuffs. Questions that hold no answers. Tho i haf been trying to hold myself back on certain issues, i realise that i am falling deeper into it. Maybe choosing to avoid them for now would be a good solution. At least for now.

Hope

2006-06-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

Finally, the long awaited break has arrived. The past week seemed like a year to me. Its all about work work and MORE WORK. Whenever i was going to leave my workplace, i will be thinking... OMG, i coming back here within 24hrs time. That SUX! That really affected my mood for the whole of last week. Can't think of anything else except to get more rest for the next shift. The rest couldn't have come at a beta time. I'm totally, if not, almost drained off my energy.

Remembered going out with Daniel last sat after my fri nite shift. That must haf been the worst shopping trip i ever had. I was virually dragging my feet all over Bugis. All the things around me seemed so identical. Lol. Must haf dampen Daniel's shopping mood. Met up with WenQian after that. This time, he is really leaving. So sad sia. He's the funniest CHINA man i've ever met in my life. Can't wait to meet him for the last time this fri with the Scouts. Dunnoe when will be the next time i can suan him again. Lol.

Things are finally getting beta with the start of this week. Just received some good news for my family. Everything is slowly changing for the beta. Feeling more relaxed now. Want to thank all those that had showed me encouragement and concern for the past weeks.

I missed going out with the brotherhood. So long since we last met up. A month ago? or was it longer? Hope we can meet up real SOON. Maybe watch world cup together? And toking abt World Cup, i'm just so excited and thrilled by it. Everyone's asking me- who's the favourites? Obviously, it gotta to be Brasil. However, something from the bottom of my heart is telling me to go with Spain... and maybe Ivory Coast. These two teams has so much potential in them. And the favourites everyone is talking abt dun usually win the cup. Like wat Guen mentioned to me last time, think i'm more club tied. I'm supporting every single team that has a GUNNER in it. I'm not gonna miss any of their actions. LOL. But France will still get most of my support...Coz of the KING!

Pulling thru tough times

2006-06-01T09:25:00.000-07:00

Let me pull thru these tough times. I can...

Sad

2006-05-20T08:07:00.000-07:00

Been hit by really bad news. Din noe that the huge responsibility will fall on me with such sudden notice. I just wonder if i have the strength to continue and perserve on. For at least another few months...

Maybe adversity will make me a stronger person. Or maybe i will succumb to it.

Forever a GUNNER!

2006-05-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

Heartbroken

2006-05-17T19:02:00.000-07:00

All the hype and excitement over the final between Arsenal and Barcelona ended just 18 mins after kick off. I could not comment much on the sending off of Lehmann, However, the game geared down significantly. The expressions on both parties displayed disappointment. Both side had looked forward to playing against each other, at their full strength. However, the ref decides to end off arsenal's hope by sending off lehmann. The goal shld haf stand and lehmann punished with a yellow card. That would be the decision that everyone agrees on. You could see the frantic expressions on Barca's players while persuading the ref to keep the player on the field. At the same time, i see great sportsmanships from both sides. Something which has been forgotten over time. Expecting the worst, i prayed to whoever is up there for a miracle. It was answered. The ten men arsenal fought back with great spirits. The goal from campbell got me jumping around in disbelief. However, it was at the same time that i feel the acceleration of Barca.

The first half ended off with the lead. But the second half was the one that do us in. The ref made countless mistakes in judgements. The yellow card "rewarded" to the tailsman skipper was outright ridiculous. The video shows a clear clean tackle. Instead, the ref choose to show his card. It was getting frustrating for me and how i wish i could stuff the whistle into the ref's mouth. The decisions all went against arsenal. Even the first goal was a product of his truely magnificant mistake. It was a clear off side from the replay and shld haf been waved off. But NO!!! By then, the arsenal defence, struck by fatigue and disappointment, could only watched as victory slipped away. However, the 2nd goal was truely a masterpiece from Hendrik Larsson. I was left speechless. The pain i feel in the heart was unbearable. I looked back at how the team had progessed this season. It was a true test to the faith of a gooner fan. It was all over by the 2nd goal. The Barca players were showing fatigue too. The final whistle then sounded. A whistle that will return to haunt me for life.

Some critics faulted Henry for the chances that he missed. However, i think otherwise. He has done a brilliant job yesterday. Motivating the team when we were down to ten. It became such a burden on him that when he gets the ball, he must score. NO! It's all wrong. Just because he does it to perfection previously does not mean he will score it. Imagine the pressure and stress that builds up. I give my salutes to him. It would truely have been a classic champion's league final with the dream combination. However, it had, obviously, been tainted by the sending off. I give my congrats to Barca. They had been the better side for the game and they r a truely magnificant side to watch. Prehaps, Henry may choose to join them.

Altho victory slipped away, but i see the potentials in the young team. They showed great spirit and commitment on the pitch. The never-say-die mentality when we were down touched me. As for Henry, i keep my fingers crossed over his decision. Next season, we will not be seeing the likes of Bergkamp, Pires and maybe Henry. Can the young team survive on its own? Much focus will be on the young boy, Walcott. If he is that good as reported. Then, the burden will be passed down from henry to him. I dun see reyes or van persie replacing henry in any way, tho both r excellent. Indeed, the future looks bleak for the gunners. However, there is still the light of hope admist the darkness that surrounds us. I feel proud for my team and will wear the jersey with pride and honour. Gunners, all the way!!!

Long and prehaps, boring text to some reading it now. But this is how i truely feel now. These few days has been down for me. The initial plan of being able to rest for a full 6 days was disrupted by the training day and manpower shortage, which means my leave will be cut short. Sigh, nothing is going right for me too. Seriously, i get so irritated with SMS lately... nvm. Forget it. Looking forward to ORD. If nuthin goes wrong, i could well be freed by early Oct. Then, i will go on a holiday with my bestest buddies. Do things i haf nv done b4. Liberate myself from the cage i am in. I need a good rest after 14 yrs of controlled life... By studies and NS. Afterwhich, i will strive...

Poisoned

2006-05-12T06:53:00.000-07:00

I'm really poisoned by SCV. OMG!!! It's all about ESPN and Star Sports for me now. And i actually spent a freaking $97 for the Arsenal Home Jersey. Wth? What am i doing sia? But thinking back, the jersey is a collectable's item and i simply just love Arsenal. Now i can walk on the streets and tell everybody i am a gunner! Ha... screw loose.

The world cup is fast approaching in less than a month's time. And as usual, its abt the ENGLAND squad again. Frankly speaking, it is simply crazy just to even think about putting a 17 yr old player with no premiership experience into the national team. Wth is Eriksson thinking? As an Arsenal fan, i feel happy for young Walcott. However, if it was another 2 yrs time, i would haf gladly gave my support. But at this time, i can't help but think in the way the critics react. Anyway, i keep my fingers crossed that he will perform and bring honour back to ashburton grove next season. Just a season ago, the arseanl team was nearly half a french team. But next season, pires and henry may leave... Vieira already left. What will become of arsenal...

Were out with the brotherhood yesterday again. As usual, the topic on girls nv seem to die out at all. Talking abt tell tale signs of a gal being interested in a guy. Everyone got so much opinions. It just differs with each person's scenario. There's no definite tell tale signs that will prove to be a confirm hit. At least thats what i thought lo. Just imagine how "MA LU" it will be when u express ur feelings to a gal and she gives the reply " i thought we were just friends!". OMG. Worst case scenario man. I will just find a hole and bury my head in it. Thats y i prefer to take my time now. Get to know the person beta. Then take things as it comes along. I dun want to say i like the gal when i dun even know a bit of her at all. I just hope it doesn't drag too long.

Its a full weekend at work for this week. So envious of all those enjoying the long weekend now. Pple r preparing to chiong out while i haf to prepare for work. Damn. NVM. HOpe my leaves for next week r approved. Then i can enjoy my 6 days rest and find time to meet up with some pple that i haf missed out for so long...

Highbury Highs

2006-05-07T23:51:00.000-07:00

I've seen children grow
On this field of green
On this field of dreams
The years have passed away
I've stood side by side With London's Pride
We laughed and we cried
We lived another day

To those Highbury Highs under North London skies
Yes we will remember those Highbury Highs
Those Highbury Days and those Highbury ways
Yes we will remember those Highbury Days

From Rocky,Ray and Raddy
To Dennis,Chippy,Paddy
The Rock of Tony Adams
The Joy of Charlie George
Chapman, Graham, Wenger
Yes we will remember
Henry,Bastin,Wright
And those record breaking scores

All those Highbury Highs under North London skies
Yes we will remember those Highbury Highs
Those Highbury Days and those Highbury ways
Yes we will remember those Highbury Days

May those Highbury Highs be with you all your days
May your Highbury Highs last forever

There’s one thing that's certain when they drop the final curtain
Something you can bet your shirt on The Arsenal's here to stay

All those Highbury Highs under North London skies
Yes we will remember those Highbury Highs
Those Highbury Days and those Highbury ways
We will always remember those Highbury..HIGHBURY..Highbury
Highbury..HIGHBURY

Highbury Highs say your final goodbyes
We will always remember those Highbury Highs
Say your final goodbyes to those Highbury Days
WE will always remember those Highbury Days
WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THOSE HIGHBURY DAYS

RPT CHORUS

Highbury Highs - written by Roger Daltrey

Busy Busy Busy

2006-04-27T08:52:00.000-07:00

Just realised i have not blogged for the past month. Getting more and more lazy. Used to blog weekly after i book out from camp. Work just keeps on piling up nowadays. It's like i always tell myself, "just endure this week of hardship, next week will be beta"...then... it became worse. Extra deployments does not seem to end at all. Qing Ming... GE.... What's next? Haiz... and my shift system is changed due to the GE. Now work consecutive 3 days then rest a day. Best. Seems like i'm grumbling so much about my job, but on the other hand, i get to see more with each passing day.

Good or bad stuffs. Equal amount.

Enough about work man. My ARSENAL is in the FINALS. ANd they meet? My 2nd FaV team Barcelona. Still remembered telling my colleagues that these two team will meet in the finals sometime in Nov last yr. And what did they Say? NONSENCE! Who has the last laugh...? When i think about the attacking potentials of both teams, i can't hide the anxiety i'm feeling. How i wish i can fly myself to PAris and Watch the MATCH of the Century! Its HENRY against RONALDINHO! OMG. The battle between the best. Right now, Barca's definitely the favourites. But i still fancy the gunners. This is the kind of big match that i wouldn't be concerned abt who really wins the game... but the wonders and miracles displayed in 90 minutes. Can't wait for 17th May to come!!!

High IQ in exhange for No EQ?

2006-03-29T05:39:00.000-08:00

Seriously, it is not hard to notice the worrying trend of robotic teenagers nowadays. In terms of gaming and studies, they are getting beta and beta. However, they had become so dependant on others. They do not have a mind of their own anymore. Disappointing. As wad Derek mentioned to me a couple of days ago. Their common sense are no longer deemed as COMMON SENSE anymore. Looking at my scouts alone, i can sense the impending crisis Singapore may face in the future. Teenagers are SOAKED in their comfort zone, not exposed to the world outside. Just look at the laxing of rules and regulations in NS. Who knows? In a couple of years, NS men no longer need to stay in camp at all. Can we really be dependant on these younger generations to defend our country and lead the economy?

Sometimes i ponder abt how the situation had changed in just 5 to 10 yrs. I am not very old myself, only a mere 19 yrs old. However, i can feel the vast difference in thinking between me and someone that is 14-15 yrs old. Not to say i am very matured or wad. But i remembered trying out crazy stuffs as a teenager. Running from police while playing soccer at void decks... Maybe the parents nowadays contribute to the problem. They dun allow young pple to indulge themself in the beauty of discovering their own personality thru experiences. Be it good or bad. "Just follow what i tell you"... Is that what education is all about?

Another worrying trend is the extend of how our teenages are affected by western influence. Be it consciously or sub consciously. We haf to admit that the generation now are opening themselves up to sensitve issues like sex. The article in Sunday times mentioned abt how open the teenagers nowadays. Seriously, do we still remember our roots as Chinese? Its disheartening when i look thru the article. Am i the only one that feels this way? The teenagers are not the one to be faulted totally. Just turn on to Channel 5 and look thru the TV listings. All i can see. Negative influences. I hope that those broadcasting the shows, spare a thought for the viewers. U would not want ur daughters or sons to be what it is like in the show.

Sentiments that not many in our society now shares with me... Sad.

Satisfactory SILVER?

2006-03-21T07:57:00.000-08:00

This year IPPT was terrible for me! Struggling to get JUST A SILVER. How weak can i get in just over a year? Remembered how it was like last year in PA. It was a breeze. None of the stations bothered me at all. Now i'm struggling like crazy. Even the simplest SIT-UP. I even fell down during standing broad jump... ha... retribution for laughing at Sean behind his back just the day b4 the test. Pull Ups and running... Can't believe the rate of deterroriation. I even walked during the run. Failure. That East Coast Park route seems never-ending to me. Struggling for the whole journey. BUT... at least there's a reward of one hundred SGD. Must do beta next yr. But before that, i must resume back to my training schedule. Run and swim every two days. The last time i did it was in NOV. Seems so far away. Coming up will be the ORD shoot. Another two hundred SGD is out for the taking!

Mood in workplace has been down for these few days. Due to a shocking news of one previous teammate who had passed away. Still so young lo. Tho i do not have any deep impression of him, but it's sad just listening about him from my colleagues. They had so much fond memories of him. Sometimes i wonder wat happens around me if i just DISAPPEAR one day. Will there be people grieving over me? Seriously, i think it is quite sad if no one remembers me at all. When its time to go... there's no stopping it at all. I just hope i can play a bigger role in lifes of those that know me. Its sometimes so wonderful looking at changes around me. One moment, i can be so cold towards pple... not even speaking up to more than 10 sentences over a period of 2 years... And at the other moment, things are slighty beta now. CHANGE... such a wonderful thing. lol

Anyway, back to my soccer column AGAIN. Its of utmost pleasure to watch GUNNER's match nowadays. With all the pace and teamwork, they are finally showing their true self. Its just the right moment for a fight back to clinch the fourth position for U.C.L qualification. All the way man! Hleb and Fabregas getting beta with each match. Its not hard to notice that all the counter attacks are sparked by these two indiviuals with pace and vision respectively.The KING was also spectacular in all the matches. Well DONE, Gunners! Next up, JUVENTUS. Can the gunners GUN them down?

8 months

2006-02-26T19:34:00.000-08:00

Extraordinary career. Really extraordinary. From chasing iguanas to drowning cases, there isn't reallie one monotonous day at work. "one creature 1.5 m long and six legged, spotted. Require assistance." Wad da hell? Thought was some monster. Turned out to be a lazy iguana sleeping in the drain. There's this excitement of not knowing wat i will be facing at the start of each shift, truely interesting. Gives me the drive to start work in a positive mindset. Yesterday was my 8th month working. 8 more months to go from now. Let's hope i can really get to enjoy myself in the remaining times.

Was so agitated watching the Arsenal-Real Madrid match last wednesday. The fine display of skill and teamwork amazed me. Especially KING HENRY, with his self created excellent strike that kept the gunners ahead in the 2nd leg. I nearly fell off the sofa when the ball went past the helpless Casillas, into the back of the net. Wasted in the sense that the gunners can actually stretch the lead further with strikes from diaby, ljunberg etc. The next match brings Madrid to Highbury. Many predict that Madrid is out of the champion's league. Not me. If Wenger decides to play a defensive team against them. HABIS. Glory in Europe, but failure at home. Domestic form has really been bad due to the ever increasing injury list. Wish the gunners success this season.

This year Vday was BAD for me. Although it wasn't the usual bachelor night with the brotherhood, i had to work. They had to work too. I have to say i wasn't thinking right at all during that period, resulting in an embarassment amd awkward situation. Should have been more firm. But at least this experience made me know what lies in my heart. I'm sorry if i had caused any disturbance to anyone involved. Was also having a real bad mood on that day too due to serious stomach upsets that bothered me for a week. Went to A&E and polyclinic for treatment, but not much relief to the pain. But at least got my "first" 2 days MC that can allow me to rest after one year of hard work.

Happy CNY

2006-02-09T09:09:00.001-08:00

Great CNY this year. Got to work on the 2nd Day. Lucky only for this year, since i ORD in Nov. Must rent a car next yr for the house visits. So inconvenient for the whole family to take public transports. As we grow older, our hongbao gets smaller. Sigh~ Missed those days where i can get 300-400 plus easily. But at least i enjoyed the time together with my family. Especially the renuion dinner.

Finally had a class outing on sat. Was great. So long since i met the brothers minus away sean who is currently training in INDIA. All the best to him man. Went to Esplanade, AGAIN, after the dinner. Fireworks AGAIN, Power. So unexpected. Hah. Think HL missed all those fireworks as she got to leave early. Bad luck.

After CNY, its back to work again.

Happy CNY

2006-02-09T09:09:00.000-08:00

3 stripes

2006-01-24T05:50:00.000-08:00

"w.e.f 12.01.2006, you are promoted to 3 stripes" FINALLY. WAITED for the past 2 months. To be precis, its the money that counts. Went to the ATM on 12th to check. OMG, its still the same meagre pay. URgh. This month really eat wind oredi. Bought new phone, new shirts. Gone. I'm really broke! Someone gotta really help me out. Next month pay will be higher(hopefully).

It's not all about the money. Dun get me wrong. The rank also sort of gif me a bit of recognition altho my job scope still da same. LOL. More opportunities to drive around from the start of this month. At first, really screwed up. Dunnoe break how many traffic offences, but at least at night, non one see. HENGZ!

One Year Anniversary

2006-01-12T04:05:00.000-08:00

11th Jan 2005. The day i started my NS term. PA, Echo Coy, Squad 2, Panther. Memories. Still remembered enlistment day. Bidding farewell to my parents at the basketball court. Sad. Altho i din show it out. Has always been good at hiding my emotions. The proceeded to shave my "precious" hair that i thought was quite okay last time. I think otherwise now. Sharing bunk with Peter, Cheng Kiong, Cheng Wei, Wee Hao, Yew Hao. We do haf our disputes, but certainly, we had fun too. Those days in bunk will still be the best times i had in Squad 2. Squad 2 had thought me lotsa life skills too. Process may not be that pleasant tho. Had fun with the guys in Rm2 and 5 too. Buddies. Unpleasant memories, i choose to forget.

Then proceeded on to NPC 2. My best memories in TRACOM. The one below me, Squid aka Edison. Shared all my prob with him. Squid, Johnson and Keng Siang were my closest buddies. Always discussing about each others prob till late in the night. Ben, how could i forget him... the guy that slips into my bed and sleeps with me... Mr Jeremy Huang that speaks like LHL, Ariff that listens mandarin songs! Salleh who keeps on bickering with me over MAN U and ARSENAL. lol. There's just so much to remember about NPC2. Especially the last day. How i wish to relive those days again.

Moved on to Orchard. Seriously, it was hard to settle in initially. It's just so different outside. The hours were one big prob. My body took long enough to customize. Then there is so much to learn. Must learn to be flexible and adapt immediately to situations. Sounds like an ardous task. However, the task was made so much easier with the help of my colleagues. My supervisors are fair to me. Deshen helped me a lot in driving. Sharul is considered my "teacher". Get scolded from him initially. But i haf to admit. I was such a blur sotong then. Wee Lun is the first friend i have in the team. Chucky is like a bro to me, pointing out my mistakes and giving suggestions to how i can improve. My 2 fellow SCs, Yong Liang and Mus, guided me along. Maybe coz of the smaller age gap, manage to clique with them faster. Took me more than a month to know everyone single one of them. Adam is the one to gif me the excitement, although tiring. KCP demostrated to me how things can be done in peaceful and correct ways. The others are great. Learnt a lot from all of them. Had fun joking ard too. Work was interesting because of every single one of them. Really appreciated it to be in the team. Strict at some times tho, but still acceptable.

I just wanna say THANK YOU to all those that have helped me in one way or another for the past year in the "extraordinary" career. Have not been in contact with the majority of ur due to time constraint. Promise to meet up more often. Just 10 more months to go! Let's move on...

Boring countdown

2006-01-04T08:10:00.000-08:00

Countdown this year wasn't fun or exciting at all. Spent it at home. So BORING. Down with sore throat. And the best thing, i got to work on 1st Jan. EXCITING. Wasn't really complaining about my job. But its real sad when u see people enjoying the public holidays and my shift work just have to clash at the RIGHT time. Christmas last year had been real tiresome for me. Draining me off my energy. The coming Chinese New Year falls right on my shift. AGAIN. OMG. But at least these clashings are ending this year. ORD on 10th Nov. So near yet so far. Was thinking about life after ORD. There's like a battle going on in me. Excitement to regain freedom. Sense of emptiness. This job has been so enriching by far and i greatly enjoyed the companionship of my colleagues. The pay is quite good too. So is the work experiences. What am i gonna do after i'm derailed from the path i'm taking now. What job am i gonna take after i ORD.

There is like about 10 months till uni entry. And that comes to another point of wad course i'm gonna take in Uni. Tho my place is already confirmed in NUS. I haf second thoughts about plunging myself into the world of Science again. ARTS seems quite appealling to me, but i know nohting of the subj. Will be a gamble for me if i decide to choose that. My mind is in a vexed now. Seriously. Was hoping that the new year would sort out these prob by itself. However, things are not getting beta. But at least BGR prob is not in the agenda, as it was in for the previous year. That BGR thingy really eats up a lot of ur mind power. Disrupts you from ur thinking process. Good to just chuck it aside first and solve imminent prob. Then there is this revival thing for my Scout Unit. Quite troubled by it after i attended the camp planned out by my juniors. Daniel, probably is having sleepless nights at home b'cpz of this prob.

There are so many pressing prob as 2005 goes and 2006 sets in. Challenging i would say. This blog has been collecting dusts since Dec 05. And the minute i come back, its all about "complaining". Who would like to put disheartening things on the blog? But just felt that i dun want to keep these things to myself all the way. There all also family prob that can't be resolved in the near future. Its just not within my powers when i think about it.

Demoralising. But there are still good things to look forward to in life. At least over the past year, i have made many valuable friends in my life. Days in camp were the most memorable. The times we suffered and rejoiced in unison. It will never be forgotten. Tho the place haf shifted. Memories hold. Making new friends does not mean forgeting old friends. I'm just glad that i am now more open to my classmates now too. The conversations i haf with them surpasses those days that i haf with them in sch. And the BROTHERHOOD is still Intact against all odds. Although things haf changed over the year, like rob finding his other half and sean... We still mange to gel ourselves together in outings. It is getting more and more difficult to get the class together nowadays. Understandable. Everyone have their own schedules and prog. But let's hope we can haf more outings with the maximum attendance available.

So wat's my new year resolutions this year? Lol. Long list, but cut it short. I wish my family. friends and colleague good health, happiness and success in work. I hope i can finish my NS term with profssionalism and good performance. I also hope to bring laughter into many other people's life. BGR, not for this year. With that, i end off my long winded text. Yawn~ Nitez and take care, EVERYONE. Back to work!

CrAzY NiGhT

2005-12-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

Wat a crazy nite we had on sat. Drank till all of us dropped dead on the bed. Sean was rolling on the floor, laughing like crazy. Rob had to teach us how to... Nvm. Can't blame him too. All of us din noe wat we were doing at that point of time. Those shots aren't the best way to drown sorrows. Especially after the defeat of the Gunners. Was so sad la... Felt like crying when i saw the 2nd goal past the helpless Lehman. Damn. Let's hope they can pick themselves up quickly and move on.

The dinner earlier on was terrible for me. Guess i did not appreciate those "delicacies" from Mache. But great to see the classmates again. It has been so long since i last saw them. Some haf grown prettier, while some, no changes. The guys... have not grown up at all, including me. We still harp on all those old JC jokes. But i really enjoy them. Never tired of those jokes.

Look forward to the next outing, if there's any.

Been quite bothered with Scouts lately. Thinking about how to revive the unit. When i look at the present state of the unit. I can't help sighing. Read the article in Today(mon), about St' John units closing down. I just wonder when our turn will be next. Regrets. Truely, scouts has benefitted me a lot in my life. It's not just about the physical skills i learnt. It's more about the interpersonal skills. I also get to know more about friendship. The memories... all so precious to me. I used to look forward to camping and broadening my comfort zone. However, all these are not happening now...

IDC

2005-11-25T05:23:00.000-08:00

Your Birthdate: November 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.

You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.

Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.

You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress.

Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years

Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities

Your power color: Crimson red

Your power symbol: Snowflake

Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Dunnoe how true it is... A leader? Ha... dun think so lehz. Inspirational? Even further off. And i am emotionally matured than my present years. Wat cock sia?

This Nov has been so slacked for me sia. No work all the way. IPAM followed by IDC. Shiok. So happy to see all my buddies in TRACOM, safe and sound. Everyone is still the same. Even OC Faizal and OC Jaffrey. This IDC course is supposed to be a course that prepares us for leadership roles in the future. However, i think i took it more like a big gathering with my friends. Having lunch with them everyday. Siew. Can even go out with Ping Chong whom i will nv ever haf a chance to go out with in my normal working days( due to the work shift). All good things got to end soon. The coming Monday will be the end of the course. After that, separation comes again and everyone resumes their normal routine job. Sad.

GeTtInG OlD

2005-11-17T21:30:00.000-08:00

Gonna say goodbye to teenage life soon... Haiz. Turning 19 soon. So fast. Remembered writing an essay for my chinese compo last time abt growing up. Scored quite well for it. Ha~! How much do i know about life then? As i looked back on my life... full of regrets. I laughed at my stupidity. All these yrs, i have been taking the pple around me for granted. Anyway, no point looking back. I must continue to strive forward.

Was building sand castle today. Wats the first thought that comes to mind? Dreadful, Stupid, Utter Waste of time. I was like thrown into a team to attend the building when my names not inside the namelist. Angry. However, things were different from wat i thought. It was fun. Sense of achievement there when u see the end product. Funny seeing a group of army BOYS march pass while i was building. They must haf been cursing at us. Fancy building sandcastles while they r suffering. Makes me feel so lucky to be outside "ARMY". Ha. Inside the group got DJ. Guess that was a commando troop. Anyway, learnt a lot from the sandcastle thing la. FUN.

This whole month's full of courses. Finally, a break from the normal routine work i do. Can't wait to meet up with my buddies in TRACOm SIA!!! I SO SO MIsSEd them LA!

NoV

2005-11-02T02:00:00.000-08:00

Its finally Nov. Just one year away to my ORD. Now that i am so used to my current job, i wonder wat i can do after my ORD. Go for a tour first? Start work immediately? No ideas. But i guess life after ORD would be so different. After being in the job for 4 months, i start to feel that some parts of the organisation can be changed for a better cause. However, i am not just gonna complain without any suggestions. It will take some time, but, i will come up with a new system that benefits everyone.

Realised that friendster just had this added feature of who viewed me. Think its kinda stupid when everyone just put themselves as anoymous. Then wats the point of this feature? Makes no sense.

Exam's around the corner. Can see lotsa pple mugging at fast food restaurants today although its public holiday. Missed those studying days alot. Pple always complain about their present condtions, not knowing how to treasure it. Only after losing it, do they start thinking back abt it. Sad. Been thinking alot about wat i am suppose to study in uni. Always thought that i am a Science person. But as i think about my future, i begin to feel quite helpless with science. Let's just seat back and see how things progress. Thats the beauty of life... Full of twists and unexpected turns of events.

Wat's next?

2005-10-16T19:40:00.000-07:00

Last week was toking abt the body of a cat. This week, guess wat? A real body sia. Haf to admit, was kinda scared entering the room. But after a while, it was more of sad than scared. I shld not comment much on the things i saw or smell. My regular was telling me. It's not a time to be scared or anything. We are doing everything at the scene out of good faith. It's actually a good deed. After pondering for sometime, i seem to see the meaning. Somehow. It was kind of an eye opener. Just haf to pity my fren, who is on first day attachment. It was the first msg of the day for him too.

Was thinking abt wat i wanna be in the future. A Teacher? SO? Seriously, i've got no idea wat i want. Failure to plan has always been quite a bother to me. I always so last min one. As i think back abt last yr around this time I wonder how much i had put in for my studies. Looking at the students around me mugging at this last minute... i begin to feel so guilty. Last year 16th Oct was such an impt day for me. Up till today, still can feel that day of disbelieve and honour. Ha... Time flies.

Wat Luck Sia!

2005-10-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

"Timecheck, 1958. Urgent Msg. Proceed to .... Do u acknowledge?" Wah Kau... Who can be more lucky than me? Just 2 more freaking minutes la. And coz of that, i reach home after midnight. Best! Wat can i say?

Saw a dead body yesterday. Not of a man, but of a cat. It was like flat, with blood flowing out from the mouth. Must haf been knocked down by a car. Sad. Just when i was "examining" the body. The reallie CUTE cat that always sleep near my place came over. At first, she saw the body but thought that her friend was just sleeping there. Gave the dao look and just walk away. Moments later, she felt that something was wrong as all of us were half squatting down for a long time, looking at her friend. Being a Kaypoh cat, decided to stroll over to take a look. Then realised wat was wrong. She just froze there. With legs stretched out, stiffed. Then started shaking. After a while, she managed to gain back her composure and make rounds around the dead body. Hoping to get some life signals from her dear friend that she always "hang-out" with. As we did not want her to be more frightened by wat she saw, decided to chase her away first. Was reallie sad when my fren removed the dead body and "placed" it in the rubbish bin.

EnDLesS SoRRoW

2005-09-18T00:26:00.000-07:00

What if you're alone
and suddenly become blind,
and what if despite that
you kept walking forward?

Come here, take my hand
If you've only got
one wing...
Even if I only have
one wing left...

What if there was
nothing to believe in,
and what if all that's left
is despair?

Please, hear my prayers
in this era overflowing
with wingless angels.

If you are left
with no wings...
I still have one
wing left,
so...
Together... together...

By aYu~

HEAVEN

2005-09-18T00:22:00.000-07:00

What you offered straight to me
With a smile for the last time
Was just so beautiful
That I gave way to tears
Surely that day
Two of us touched love

We seeked for each other
Lost ourselves at times
And found each other at last
So whatever result may be waiting for us
It's nothing but
The destiny

In the sky you set out for
Stars are shining tenderly upon me
Stay by my side, my dear
Crossing over time and changing your shape
You see? The future we haven't yet seen

Remains here like this
Stay by my side, my dear
Crossing over time and changing your shape
The future we haven't yet seen
Remains here

Trust me, my dear
You live within me
So I'll never
Say good-bye to you

By aYu~

TrAiNiNg!

2005-09-08T00:10:00.000-07:00

Realised how skinny i was when i went swimming with YC yesterday. Surprisingly, he seems quite muscular for his size... as for me. All i can say is... a skinny freak. Damn! No way is this gonna carry on sia~ Absolutely no way. I tried to recall when was the last time i did a real physical training. Realised that it was aeons back... 4 months ago. No wonder i am so weak now. Also, my mum has been advising me to do exercises constantly. Say that for my age now, i can still grow. So as from today, 8th September, i am gonna start my training! Every alternate days~ Run Run Run to the swimming pool, then swim swim swim. After that run run run back again and end off with static pump pump pump! I'm not GONNA GIVE UP this time. I SWEAR! I'm so disappointed with my current appearance... This must CHANGE!

Project Superstar

2005-09-02T22:00:00.000-07:00

Project Superstar's a real success. This event managed to bring out the best of Singapore's young pool of talents. The champ, kelvin chen weilian has such a nice voice. To me, he symbolise courage and endurance. Regardless of all the difficulties he had, he never gave up. RESPECT. Kelly was great too... To me, she looked more like the superstar that we haf in mind. I guess this show has brought out the inner self of alot to dream of becoming an artiste. Who knows? Maybe i may join the competition 2 yrs later for fun. LOLX! I thought through it too... i just make sure i dun make a clown of myself to get filmed down and telecast can alreadi...ha. Not bad an experience to try my luck like the thousands over there. See how la :P

Yesterday was teacher's day. So many fond memories of it. Can still recall how we played and joked with keng hsin, deang and Mr Ho. The brotherhood used to haf so much fun with them. It seemed so near... I was still in class with the brotherhood. Joking and playing a fool on sean, telling him to put the mask on. Buying the FHM for Mr Ho... Can't help recalling those times.

Now as i walked along Orchard Rd... Far East Plaza in my blue uniform. Memories of the past come back. The times of after sch activities we had. When will those days return? Anyway, back to work!

ThE 50th EnTrY

2005-08-23T11:45:00.000-07:00

It's the 50th entry in this blog, i can't even believe it myself. Did i haf so much to tok abt? Think most of the things thtat i blog abt is complaining ba. Well, i hope that will change in my future entries. Learnt that complaining is actually a contagious disease. Being in a group of complaint kings makes u unhappy and unsatisfied subconsicously. So, advice is... STAY AWAY from them! Joking onli... if really need to stay away from them, i guess we would haf less than half of the friends we have now. Just try and recall la... with every start to a conversation... the word, SIAN will come in. So let's just try and speak something new for a change, like, "Oh, today was great!". Ha... i sound so bull-shitting.

Anyway, enough of that complaint stuffs. Realised that i blog less often now. Getting lazy. Last time i make it a pt to blog with every book-out. But now, i can do it anytime. It's always like this... people do not treasure things they haf now. Only when they lose it... they starting crying over it. Freedom was something i yearn for in Tracom. But now, when i haf the freedom, i start abusing it, or shld i say waste it. Ha.

Jue Dui Superstar was great. But the judging is so screwed up. Ha... both the contestants i support went out on the same day. Shi Xin Hui was great. Powerful voice. A pity that she got out tho. But i also supported Kelly la. So still not too bad. For the male portion, i shldn't comment much man... :<

Think the most memorable experience this month is the trip to the mortuary ba. Was not scared... but shocked. My english too lousy.. Hard to express it out in words here. Guess i would haf to tell u myself face-to-face. Hee.
And the lousiest thing this month would haf to be the arsenal chelsea match. Screwed up goal.

TiMe To On ThE BoOsTeR!

2005-08-12T21:50:00.000-07:00

Guess it's collecting dust here. So long since i last blogged. Haf been real busy for the past 2 weeks. Lotsa extra duties and work. Life has been hectic for me. But i will not grumble. This is the kind of lifestyle i haf forgotten. Think its finally time i recover from the slump. The past 4 months has been a good rest time. Think it will be the same old me all of u gonna see in the coming weeks. But not totally the old me la, will try to change some of my bad habits.

This year national day has been so different from previous years. Y? Coz i am at the scene itself, rather than watching the parade from the TV. Although the duty can be tiring and meaningless at some point of time, but at the end of the day, i felt quite happy to be there. Especially for the fireworks. Who could haf been closer to the fireworks than me? It was just on top of my head. Nice experience. But its always the same words in my mind that come back to haunt me every time i watch the HANABI ( fireworks). "It would haf been so great to haf a gal beside, watching it together" Haha... still remembered that it was SeAnY BabY that said those words. I missed the brotherhood so much. The times that we just sit ard and chilll at esplanade on fri or sat. Its been so long since we last met up. But now also hard to meet up too, with my irregular schedules. Rob's been busy with ..., Sean always MIA, Soon is the only free one ard. Haiz. Hope we can reallie meet up real soon.

Went back to TRACOM today. Nuthin has changed. My same old OC is still as cheerful and caring as ever. As i walk past the gymasium, i can feel "it" there. The echoes of the warriors of NPCO squad. Just one month plus ago, we were still in there. Like a bird in the cage, yearning from freedom. Guess those memories will stay with me forever. NPCO, must meet up, kz!!!

WoRk

2005-07-27T17:00:00.000-07:00

Lookng at criminals in the lock up, i can't help but feel a sense of empathy for them. Wat will they actually be thinking about during that moment inside the lock up... " i wanna escape", "not to worry, i wun get convicted", "wat r those pple outside gonna do to me?", "god, please help me!", "i wanna see my family". Looking at some of their clothings, u can see how bad a situation they r in now. Is it really worthwile to do things impulsively and get urself into the records? U will nv ever haf a clean record again. So think twice b4 committing a crime. Even if u dun wanna think for urself, think for the pple the pple ard u. Surely they would be upset ny ur actions, especially ur parents.

So far, job has been exciting and enriching for me. Get to experience new things with each day. Feel so fulfilling at the end of every shift. Although work can be tiring, meals and sleep becomes irregular, its really worth it. My teammates r one bunch one fun pple to mix ard with. The initial awkwardness is gone with the numerous laughters and chats we had. They gave me help when i most need them. For that, i really wanna thank them. Personally, i did my part by trying to remeberise every single road name in orchard. Not an easy task to accomplish.

FiNaLlY, WoRk!

2005-07-20T11:15:00.000-07:00

After one week of rest, its finally work! I'm so glad to be in team Bravo. The pple there are really friendly. Offering help when i need it.

I was very blur for the past 2 days. Clueless about how to do log sheet and stuffs liddat. Dun reallie noe how to use the PR set too. Think TRACOM shld have more sessions on using the PR set. Heard that NPCOs used to haf attachments to all the other NPCs first before being deployed out to their permanent one. Think that's a very good idea. At least the new NPCOs wun be as blur cock as me la.

Saw lotsa stuffs out there. Who would believe that there is something happening in some parts of Orchard at any time... well, i've seen it with my own eyes. There are more interesting things that i haf come across.. eg, Orchard Towers. For straight guys, please do not go there... SCARY.

The shift work system is reallie tiring for me. By the time i knock off from work, i'm like some walking zombie. Night shift still not so bad... but morning shift reallie kills. Think i would haf to adjust to the new system ASAP ba. Still gotta noe my team mates beta and learn the ropes from them.

ECHO BRAVO???

2005-07-15T18:00:00.000-07:00

Ha... Guessed its quite hard to believe. But, i haven even start my work yet! It was planned to be tonight. But i was informed at the last minute that my team has changed and my work will start on sunday morning instead. Makes not much diff to me anyway.

Went for enhancement driving yesterday. Was so happy to see my NPC2 mates. They are still the noisy and playful bunch. It was truely like an excursion lo. Driving on the expressway was another nice and new experience. The driving instructors had their fun too. Its such a nice feeling to see people ard u laughing and rejoicing!

The Kbox session after that was absolutely crazy too. Finally manage to go after so many "empty talks" for the past 6 months. Off-key so many times... too long nv sing le ba. Ken, edison. Paiseh ah... Troubled both of u with my voice...Lolx!

ECHO CHARLIE

2005-07-11T21:05:00.000-07:00

I'm officially a police officer now. Can't believe that i really got posted to Orchard NPC. Mixed feelings. But at least the NPC is easily accessible. Things are completely different from those days in TRACOM. In TRACOM, at least when u know that u haf committed a mistake, someone will be there to help ( usually OCs). However, in the outside world, its all about survival. Dun expect pple to watch ur back. U just have to find a sturdy wall to lean on, so that nothing happens to u. Sounds quite negative... but i'm just stating a fact. Anyway, feel proud to be in ECHO (the busiest division). I will do my best!!! I promise.

TeArFuL SePaRaTiOn

2005-07-09T11:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday marks the last day of trainee life for me. Always thought that it was gonna be the happiest day for me. However, it turned out to be the saddest day for me. I never knew that i was so attached to NPC2. Our last meal in the mess was the most memorable one. In front of 200-300 trainees, NPC was cheering, singing and shouting. We were simply crazy at that moment. Eyes of envies were upon us. We were the heros of the NPC story. No FIs were there to stop us. Or rather, everyone was stunned with our actions. At that moment, there were no differences between NPC 1 and 2. There exist only one NPC squad. Our voices joined together as the song "GRADUATION" was playing. We sang in unison. We hugged each other. We shaked each others' hands. Some were just smiling, but with tears in their eyes. Some just let it out. It was truely a memorable moment. Our voices echoed across the whole of the mess, across the whole of Delta Coy, across the whole of TRACOM. The sense of brotherhood was so intense. I never felt that kinda joy b4.

The time for separation came shortly after that. At ard 3pm, we were all set and ready to go. Looking at the empty beds and cupboards, i felt so sad. Vivid memories of NPC2 flashes through my mind. The times when we were scolded, the times we laughed together, the times we argued, the times we stand together to face problem, the times when we showed our courage in the face of troubles. NPC2 never bowed down to difficulties. We were there for each other. Everyone in the squad has their own way to show their concern. I would like to take this opportunity to thank those that haf played a very impt role in this NPC story.

First on the list would be my OC, SI Jaffrey. He was always there for us. Regardless of wat mistakes we had committed, he would be there to forgive us again and again. He is just like a father to the 28 mischevious NPC kids.

Our OC, SI J Faizal is like a brother to us. He imparts new knowledge everyday. Just by listening to him for a few minutes, i seem to have a broader view of the world outside. He sees us as close frens rather than trainees.

Our FI, ANG, although not always there for us, showed equivalent amt of care and concern for us. He too takes us as frens, not trainees. He gaf us the freedom that we need. Never scolded us like wat other FIs did.

Last and foremost, the whole of NPC 2. Everyone single one of them has given me good memories. Especially my buddy Edison. He was able to tolerate my short tempers and nagging. He was always there to gif me good advices when i face problems. The rest of the squad was very close to me too... ariff, johnson, ken, ben, afiq, jeremy huang/boo, salleh, edward, singh, howard, desmond, hanz, elfian, faz, shah, hamzah, jufrey, hafeez, ismail, zamri, akmal, safiyan, safian, Md Noor, Syed. Thanx for all the nice experiences u all haf given me. I love u all!!!

LaSt WeEk Lo!

2005-07-03T13:00:00.000-07:00

Next Fri is POA. Yea~ Btw, POA means Passing Out Again. Crappy~ NPC2 reallie gave me lotsa fond momories... NO NEED TO SHOUT WAT... Boo. Funny Guy. I luv NPC 2!!!

The past week hasn't been an enjoyable one. From monday to friday... full of downs. Haiz... unlucky. But weekend was completely different. Veri enjoyable. Just that i'm broke b'coz of that $315.84.

Nvm all that... FRI, i'm coming!

LeT Me PaSs OuT sAfElY

2005-06-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

Less than 2 weeks left in TRACOM. Shiok... finally that day has come. 8th JULY. I will remember that day forever.

My driving test will be on next wed. Confident? A bit ba. Let's hope for the best. Having a real bad mood this weekend. Can't explain it myself too. The minute i woke up on sat morning, i felt so moody and frustrated. Dun noe wat's happening to me.

ExAm???

2005-06-19T01:10:00.000-07:00

My NPCO course final exam is on next fri. Prepared? Just the opposite. Noe nuts abt the theory part. Cannot reallie blame on the OCs. They did their part... just that i din haf the motivation to learn in this course. So different from ard 2 months ago. I was still aiming to be the best trainee at that time. I din onli want to be the best in ops fitness, i wanted to be the best in law studies too. I wanted to prove to others that i am worthy of being in SAF, and not police. So long... i haf been living in this kinda of lifestyle. I wanted others to noe of my existance, want others to look up to me as a capable person. Want them to be proud of my achievements... Y? Am i truely happy leading that kinda life? I feel tired now... i just want to let go of all this ego and thoughts. I need time to rest. I dun feel like competing anymore, i'm sick of it. Now, i just hope that i can live a simple life, with all my family members and frens safe and sound. On the other hand, i will focus my mind on learning new stuffs everyday. There's no end to knowledge out there. The more i dig, the more gullible i feel. There's so much out there.

DrIvInG!

2005-06-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

Driving is no joke. It is real tough for me lor. First 2 days of lesson reallie scared the shit out of me. I thought the first few lessons would just be familiarisation of the vehicle and simulation. In the end, my instructor actually brought me out to cruise. I was so tensed up in the car, praying hard that i would not hit anyone. Especially when i see the small kids and old people crossing the road, i became so worried of their safety.

But as time goes by, i began to relax and enjoy the ride. Friday was a morale booster for me. Managed to regain my confidence after executing the final tech, parallel parking. Guess from now on, it will just be revision and revision ba.

Did something that i would never have expected to do previously. Dun even noe where i got the courage from. Haha... Maybe i haf reallie changed. The FM93.3 concert power man! Especially Lin JunJie. Spectacular. Think i will go buy his CD soon. Tml gonna book in early in the morning. Reallie Sianz... But all this waiting for freedom will come to an end in 3 weeks time. Till then, i will keep to being the obedient trainee that i have been for these 6 months. After that, HELL BREAK LOOSE........

JuZ 1 MoNtH AwAy

2005-06-05T13:00:00.000-07:00

The grass is always greener on the other end. I fully agree with this. Just 7 months ago, i was still envious of my frens in the SAF, while for them, its the other way round. In the SPF, i was envious of my frens in OCT, while for them, its the other way round. I think human is never satisfied with their present condition. No matter how fortunate they are presently, they will still look to improve their lives. When will humans be able to be contented with wat they haf, and not wat they do not haf yet. I guessed my previous OCs have reallie changed my mindset abt life.

I can finally drive soon. Its starting on next monday. Can't wait to get my hands on the steering wheel. Went to donate blood on monday. It was truely an interesting experience, looking at ur own blood, flowing out like water from a tap. Finally got a bit of news abt work in Echo. Sounds reallie interesting to me. When i ask my frens that r alreadi in division abt Echo, they simply say, "Good Luck!" Thats reallie 'encouraging'.

7th WeEk

2005-05-29T16:20:00.000-07:00

Time flies. May is coming to an end and the most impt day, 8th July is approaching. Heard that i am able to choose the NPC i want to go as long as it is still in 'E' division. June is gonna pass by even faster. Y? Coz my practical is finally starting on the 6th June. Can't wait to lay my hands on those steering wheels.

Found out that onli ard 11 persons from my former class managed to make it to the 3 unis. Comparing the stats to other classes, its not too bad. However, i would still haf prefered to see at least 80% get thru. The brotherhood is gonna be split up totally again. Just confirmed yesterday abt my choice for uni entry. NUS FOS was my final choice. Look forward towards uni life.

I'm really happy in my current squad. I'm starting to enjoy every single one of their companionship. I've got no idea whether it was me that changed or wat... but i feel happier these days. I look at things from different angles now. I'm not that possessive anymore. I'm not that competitive anymore. I opened up myself to others more often. I believe in miracles. Most importantly, i learnt to appreciate things and pple ard me.

PrOteCt Or To LeT gO?

2005-05-23T01:00:00.000-07:00

Just watched star wars today. Left me thinking abt lotsa stuffs. Anakin joined the dark force as he was too attached to people ard him. He wanted to protect Padme from dying. Was it wrong of him to protect his loved ones? All the while, i haf been hearing abt pple gaining true strength and courage when protecting loved ones. Is that all crap? To let go may be a beta option... So is it to let go or to protect?

Been thinking and thinking abt lotsa stuffs this week. Wondering wat is the greatest fear for human. Death? Not reallie... There r so many cases where humans do not fear death. I remembered someone telling me that speaking on stage in front of the crowd is the greatest fear for most humans. Is it? I dun think so... After much thoughts, i think that LONELINESS is still the worst fear in human. We all want to be in a place where we can belong to... someone to care for us, to give us companionship and love. We need to haf the feeling that someone will be there to support us when we r down. Just imagine having ur lunch alone in the canteen... how do u think u will feel? I'm glad that i am always surrounded by my family members and frens. They supported me all the way, showing me all the concerns and care i need. I know that i am not really good at expressing out my feelings and thoughts to pple. However, from the bottom of my heart, i just want to say to my frens and family members that i love u all. I also want to thank GOD for giving me everything i've got now.

Enough of all that. So UNLIKE me. Back to reality man. Arsenal finally won man u in the first time since 04/05 season started. Man U was great. Especially ronaldo and rooney. BEST! But i think the best person on the field is Lehman. Lotsa fine saves from him. Next season starting in August. Till then, must save money to apply for SCV. Tml gonna book in again... SIANZ man! Frens, tc~ May the force be with u~ LOLX!

WeEk 5

2005-05-15T10:15:00.000-07:00

Been raining for the whole week. Stayed in bunk and slacking for the whole day. Makes me feel like i am wasting precious time. Think i will restart on my jap. At least i will feel occupied. Passed my Basic Theory Test. Awaiting for the Final Theory Test next Tue.

Read the book "Follow Your Heart" some days ago. I strongly recommend it. " The more you are attached to things, the more likely u will screw it up"... Quite true for me. Makes me ponder abt lotsa stuffs in life. Heard that NUS has just started to send rejection letters. Felt quite sad when i heard some of them receiving it. Hope that they can pick themselves up fast.

Think i most prob going NUS FOS. Although NTU offered me chemistry too, i feel uneasy abt it. It's a new course at NTU. I dun wanna be guinea pig again. Realised that during my school years, i haf always been a guinea pig to the education system in Sinhapore. NIE hasn't replied to me yet. Think it makes no diff ba. But somehow feel more assured that i can be a teacher next time if i receive it. Was quite shock when i heard May going for the NIE interview too. Can't pic her being a teacher in my mind. Guen going overseas to study soon. All the best!

Shocked to hear the demolition on thurs morning. Arsenal crushed Everton 7-0. How is that possible... It's gonna be a long weekend next week. Really looked forward to it. Frens, feel free to jio me out. Midnite also can. I dun wanna waste my weekends away.

WeEk 4

2005-05-07T17:40:00.000-07:00

Week 4 has been a real short one. Met our new course manager, SI JAFRI le. A very nice guy. Although not as entertaining as SI Faizal, he does his duty well. Happy to haf him with us for the next 2 months. This week has been real slack for me. No PTs at all. Supposed to haf IPPT one. Last min cancel. We were shown pics of corpse found at accident scenes on Wed. Really horrifying and disgusting. Especially those from sky diving. Friends of mine, please re-consider b4 taking ur own life. No problem is too big. Especially BGR problems... Dun die for 1 guy or 1 gal, its not worth it. There's still so many things out there to enjoy. Stay positive. If u r really so troubled, call me out for a shout... i wouldn't mind joining in. I realised that shouting is still the best way to destress.

Had my BTT on friday afternoon. Dunnoe whether can pass ornot. The test book i received was apparently tougher than the other one. Hope i can pass it on the first attempt. Then i can move on to FTT le. Was lucky to be allowed to go home straight after my test at UBI. Attended ellein's dance performance with soon, hm and mitch at temasek poly. Quite enjoyable, especially the CJC one. Spectacular. Then me and soon roamed ard town like gay couple. Sad sia. NO gals with us or anything. Just 2 lonely guys out in the cold, dark nite. Watched House of Wax. Wat can i say? SICK man! No Joke. Lotsa new shows coming out... especially Star wars!

CoAcH CaRtEr

2005-05-02T14:30:00.000-07:00

Coach Carter's a nice show. Gives me a new perception of wat education is about. This weekend has been a very enjoyable and tiring one. Ever since i'm back home on friday, i have been going out almost every minute. Went Hougang Kbox with my family members on Sat morning. Was really affected by the lousy attitude of the workers there. Frankly speaking, i would not even go that outlet if i have a choice. Toa Payoh Kbox still rulez man! Went to Daniel's place after that to watch VCD. Romeo must die is quite a great show. Lotsa nice moves by Jet Li. He never fails to impress me with his fighting techniques.

Went to PS with YC after that to catch a midnight show. We decided to watch Wet dreams. The title is kinda sick, but the show is real nice. Very funny. However, my neck nearly broke off as i was sitting at the front row. Then played PS whole nite at my place. YC was so pissed with me la. for winning him in NARUTO. By the time i send him home at the bus stop, it was already 7.30 am in the morning. Was so tired when i finally lie on the bed. But strangly, i dun seem to be able to sleep la... Turning and tossing on the bed. Thinking abt lotsa of stuffs in my mind. Some strange thoughts just passed my mind. Impossible. By the time i really feel like sleeping again, its already 11am.

Went out to meet the brotherhood, hm at orchard. We decided to watch a show to pass time and we made the best choice. Coach carter is one of the nicest show i have watched so far in my life. We met May before the show. She's still the same bubbly cheerful person we know. Guess she's one of the only one that does not seem to change over the yrs. Dinner was quite nice, however, because we spend so much time talking abt marriage, we actually missed the fireworks at esplanade. Thanks to Robbie and Sean! Was kinda pissed during their argument. Reached home ard midnight. Tiring and shacked... its 38hrs without rest.

In few hours time, going back to PA again. Our OC squad changed le. Was so sad when i received the news on Monday. J Fiscal is truely a great person man. I call him the know-it-all man. He seems to know everything about religion and stuffs. He is my role model. Counting down from now, i think there is still 9 weeks left. SIANZZZ! But at least driving lessons start le. Quite tiring fo me as all the lessons are in the nite. My BTT will be on next Fri. Hope i can be released straight from CDC after the test. It would be of so much convenience for me as i need to rush off to TP in the evening. Hope i can pass driving at the first attempt.

TeAcHiNg?

2005-04-23T10:55:00.000-07:00

Went for the interview at MOE for BSc(Education) on fri. It is definitely an attractive offer but somehow, i feel that the chemistry i am gonna learn at NIE is gonna be so much less indept than if i go to NTU or NUS. At the same time, i am given the option to study chemistry at NTU. Was quite excited when i received the news. For now, i will just wait and see. Maybe NUS will send me their offer too... Let's hope that happens. Oh ya... toking abt the interview... i was so shocked when i was at the waiting area. I wonder how come so many chio gals are intending to teach. And for the guys that are there... Really cannot make it man! Thick specs, skinny and acts like a robot. If i were to be their student, i would definetely sleep. Lolx!

The 2nd week as NPCO has been great. My squad mates are fun loving and good in soccer. Really enjoyed my game with them. Btw, i am officially a corporal le. My course manager finally gave the go for us to put on our rank. He even put the rank for us. Now can disturb 119th intake liao... lolx. Had my PT session on Tue. It was still quite okay ba... maybe my fitness has really improved under panther. Was so bored on Wed nite... so i decided to msg my classmates to ask them abt how they haf been doing lately. Most of them are working now, except for some lazy one which i shouldn't mention the name.

Soon seems to be suffering at navy too. Always thought that his training would be slack as he is gonna be a clerk there. Found out that it was not the case. He seems to be going thru something like BMT there. He's onli gonna be sort of free in Sep. Sean and robbie suffer a worser fate. They are in SISPEC now, which means going back to the damn island again for another 5 mths. Heard that robbie's company is the most shiong in SISPEC. All the best to him man! The most jia lat thing of SISPEC is that they can onli book out on Sat evening and book in on sun nite. In comparison to them, i think i am the most fortunate one ba. Got a free driving license subsidized by SPF, learnt more relevant skills like communication, problem solving and etc. After the training at PA, i will be working under a very slack shift system. I am really lucky!!!

Next weekend is gonna be a long one. Must go to esplanade on labour day. Think there will be fireworks again like last yr. Anyone interested to go, just call me along.

NeW KiNdA LiViNg CoNdItIoN

2005-04-17T03:50:00.000-07:00

This week has been a real slack week for me. 1 hour break after breakfast, 2 hour break after lunch and freetime after 1630. This kinda lifestyle is really boring man. Delta Coy is totally different from Echo Coy. I am sharing my room with 28 people now. No longer the 6 person per bunk anymore. No "personal" bathing cubicle anymore. In Delta Coy, bathing is of no privacy. Lolx! My bunk people r quite fun to be with. Always joking ard and slacking together. Hope everyone stay the same way for these 3 mths. Kinda rushing off now... So cya~ everyone.

HoUsE Of FuRy RaWkS!

2005-04-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

House of fury rawks man!!! Gillian is so chio when she let down her hair. The plot of the story is quite good too. Emphasize a lot on family bonds. This show 4 stars out of 5. I will definitely recommend it to my frens. Watched the show with YC at jubilee yesterday nite. Dun think he really enjoyed the show much as he was sick. He slept halfway thru the show too. Can't blame him.... he book out at evening time and had to join me for movie straight after that. Pity him. Looking at his state now... i feel so fortunate. Most of my frens in SISPEC still have to go thru 5 mths of training on shitty tekong while i just need to go back to PA for 3 mths. Somemore i get a free driving license and my physical training reduced to minimal due to time constrain. To make things worst... they can only book out on sat evening every week and physical training is tougher now... no incentive to carry on too. I'm so fortunate!

However, i kinda feel quite shitty now. Its like beginning BMT again. Its another 13 weeks of training with no public holidays in between. Sianzzz... Heard that driving is gonna take up large part of the training time. Think this 13 weeks shld pass quite fast ba. Then i will be transfered to echo division to start my duties. Can't wait for that to happen. Meantime, its another countdown for me again. 13 WEEKS LEFT!!!

A neW sTarT

2005-04-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

Its finally POP. I must say that the numerous rehearsals have really paid off. I really respect FI Fiduous man! If given the chance, i wanna learn foot drill under him. Too bad. I'm not posted as a FI. I got posted to NPCO Echo division, Tanglin. Which means that i haf to stay in for another 3 months in TRACOM and after that work ard orchard area. Fun? Dun think so. Many say echo is damn busy. Nvm, i'm a workaholic... suits my personality. Best part is i can get a free driving license. Siewz man!

Said goodbye to Echo Coy in the morning. Felt damn sad as i was leaving the bunk. We took pics ard the bunk for memorial purposes. Din noe i was so emotional lohz... Maybe its when u put in more effort to keep the place in order, u feel more for the place. I miss my bunk mates.... Peter's irritating voice... cheng wei's laziness... Wee hao's chao kianness... all these gonna be gone forever. Regardless of the quarrels we have last time, we were still the closest to each other in the squad. BUNK 4... the best bunk, also the dirtest and the most exciting bunk. Now, i am transfered to Delta Coy. Really feel that the place is screwed up. Hope these 3 mths can zoom pass fast.

Was the emcee for my company function on monday nite. It was held at the swimming pool. Can say it was quite a failure as coordination was not really there. i was at fault too as i was kinda boring and din come out with jokes to entertain the guests and company mates. But it was a good experience though. Damn tired now... Nitez~!

POP

2005-04-03T00:06:00.000-08:00

POP is this thurs evening. I'm so glad all these trainings gonna end soon. Was kinda sad when i knew that i was not selected for OCT because of my average score. That stupid SBT had to do me in. Makes me wonder y i chiong so hard for my field training which only adds up to 30% of the total marks. Although i din get selected, but at least i got an award for best in field training. Consolation Prize? I guessed so ba. Haiz, no time to brood about it anymore... I will just look forward to my posting and work harder in any place i am in.

Attended the scouts investiture yesterday at changi beach. All i can say is that the standards are falling with every batch. It seems that the teacher in charge does not welcome seniors to return to the unit to help out. Saddening. Anyway, had a good dinner yesterday at changi village. Met East area commisioner aka state Coroner. I was so shocked when he said hello to me. Din noe how to react. In any aspect, regardless of scouts or police, he is so much superior than me.

This thurs will be my most happy day in BMT. I kinda look forward to it. Then on fri, its gonna be a new start for me.

No MoRe ExAmS!!!

2005-03-26T23:38:00.000-08:00

Yea~! All my exams are finally over. The law test on tuesday was quite okay. Not too difficult... but not too easy too. Dun think i can get very good results for the test. I'm just glad its all over.

Had my last Dojo lesson on Wed nite. I felt kinda sad, knowing that it was probably gonna be my last time there. Although those instructors can be quite a bastard when it comes to warm-ups... but generally, they are a bunch of nice people. The handcuff test was not very tough and everyone in my squad passed it well. Learnt how to do rifle drill in the morning. Took quite a long time just to do the drills right. The stain from the oil does not seem to get off no matter how hard i scrub. Overall, its still quite a nice experience. Heard that there will be no rifle drill for POP. Thank god man!

Thurs was crap for me. The first half of the scenario based test was still quite okay. The second half was a complete screwed up. I dun think the fault lies with me and my partner lohz. The tester was most prob having a bad mood. His sentences never crossed 3 words lohz. No briefing and debriefing... how he expect us to know our mistakes. Nevertheless, i keep my fingers crossed and hope that i can pass the SBT well. Passing the SBT well will definitely boast my chances of getting into OCT. Heard that there are 4 spaces reserved in OCT for us from Jin Bao. Hope i can really get in.

Was at TP Kbox on fri with Jackass and YC. Finally managed to vent out my frustrations with all the singing and shouting. Lolx. Wasted 8.50 and 2 hrs of my weekend watching the movie, jian gui 10. Can't imagine how a horror movie can turn into a comedy. After that, we had dinner at fork and spoon. It was fun listening to Sean toking abt his rubbish experience in field camp. Felt so fortunate i am in PA and i never had to go through all those shit.

Went for trekking with the squad on sat. It was kinda boring. Maybe coz of the crowd that gathers at macritchie. I prefer to walk ard macrithie without the crowd. The lunch with Daniel and DJ was good. The food was really heavenly compared to those in PA lohz. Went out with Robbie and Sean late at night to have supper at CINE BK. Soon Hui just had to pang seh us at the last minute. Haiz... its been so long since the brotherhood gets together for a drink or meal.

Next week is full of rehearsals and slack time. Monday will be my turn to become role payers for the SBT. FUN! Think i will know my posting by next Tue during class. Full of rehearsals on Wed, Thur and Fri. Then it will finally be my last book out before POP. Yea~ Its finally coming. Can't wait to get my corporal rank. Got a few friends in OCT now, hope i can join them next next friday. Till then, i'm gonna enjoy the remaining time in PA with my bunk mates. Cya everyone, take care, kz!

EvErYtHiNgS cOmInG To An EnD!!!

2005-03-19T05:44:00.000-08:00

Was damn sad on monday nite when i received the news that my beloved hamster has passed away peacefully in its sleep on monday morning around noon. His age is unknown even to me. But certainly, he is more than 2 yrs old. Kinda miss it now. He even screams and coughs, like how a human does. Strange rite? Haiz, hope he is happy wherever he is now.

This week zoomed past real fast man. Not much physical training but tension builds up as the exams r approaching. 3 more days and its exam. Habis. Did my OB duty on thurs. Was screwed by panther for the whole day. We literally arranged everything in the OB room. Was damn stressed as there were numerous instructions given by panther at the same time and he expect everything to be done promptly too. Was so damn stressed up. OB duty was supposed to be slack lahz... Mine was terrible.

My IPPT results r out. Din feel happy abt it though... maybe coz of others' result. There were degrees of unfairness. Hope everything turns out fine. Was recently "promoted" and as expected, it invited lotsa fuss over it. I just dun get it. Am i at fault? I din do anything wring rite? I guess being the flag raiser for friday morning caused some commotion too. Y r my actions so closely watched by others? Can't they just mind their own business like how i do? Its getting on my nerves. Luckily, its just another 2 weeks plus. I really can't stand working with pple that spend most of their time badmouthing pple. There's a high chance i may still work with them in the coming months... maybe in NPCO or other departments. Hope they will change for the beta. They were still okay in the first few weeks lohz. After panther showed me some favouritism, they made a 180 degrees turn and become hostile against me. Dammit.

Haiz, i beta stop thinking abt all these and concentrate on my law studies. Gonna K the books later. Gunners performing quite well against blackburn now. Keep it up.

POP iS jUsT 3 1/2 wEeKs AwAy~

2005-03-12T07:59:00.000-08:00

YeA~ Gonna POP soon le. 3 and a half weeks left. Still no idea where i would be posted to. Kept on thinking over the week whether the pursuit for OCT is worth it ornot. Offending people along the way is inevitable. But i just wonder whether i am up to it. Seriously, getting the post does not mean u r good. It just mean a new start for u to take on new challenges and responsibilities. Can i really cope with all that? I'm starting to doubt myself. Nevertheless, i am still gonna work harder. To make myself worthy for OCT. It does not matter whether i get in ornot... at least i tried rite? Lolx! Btw, had my IPPT test on monday. Was quite satisfied with the results. Managed to improve a lot for running. Not enough, must improve more.

Left with written test, SBT and unarmed tactics. The pressure is building up. Next Next mon is the written test and i'm still clueless abt law. I beta do something abt it next week. Next sat is the trekking. Siew... I really miss the forest man! Going to macritchie is like going back home lohz... Lolx! Hope can finish the whole thing in 3 hrs.

Gunners out of champions league le. They did well la... with henry scoring the onli goal of the match. Now Henry is injured and out for at least 2-3 weeks. Nevertheless, gunners still performed quite well in today's match against bolton. Keep it up! Guys, take care~

WhErE To Go?

2005-03-05T21:37:00.000-08:00

Got an average result. Full of B's. Directly opposite from the O's. My result most prob can go uni ba. Cj did quite badly... i guess. Judging from the no. of pple seen crying. Just wanna advise those who did badly. Its not the end of the world. There r still many things to look forward to in life. Dun let one small mistake destroy u. Instead, try to remedy the situation. Stay positive. Be happy!

This week has been bad for me. Pple are treating me differently... with hostility. Seriously, i haf no idea y they hate me so much. All i can say is i dun like to suck up to others and please, be a man, if u r unhappy abt some things i haf done, confront me. I see wat i can do abt it.

Counting from now.... i am exactly one month away from POP. Yea~! I'm gonna be happy no matter where i am posted to. Be it OCT, NPCO or SA, i'm gonna perform to my best. That's a promise. The 119th intake is coming in one week time... feels like an old bird now. LOLX. Onli left with unarmed tactics, SBT, IPPT and written test to clear. This one month gonna zoom pass soon. Ippt is gonna be over next week... that means no more PT... Gd!

Long Live Henry.... Ur Hat trick was perfect. All the best to the gunners for wed nite. Everyone, take care and Cya~

6 WeEkS LeFt!

2005-02-26T22:10:00.000-08:00

This week has been a tiring and fulfilling week. I think the most happy thing for me this week shld be attaining the marksmanship for shooting ba. I got a border line 80+ while a lot of my frens got over 90+. Congrats to everyone man. Wat the instructors advised in the dry practice lessons came true. My laser damn cock. The battery low its not accurate at all. I onli got myself to blame for relying too much on the usage of lasers. During the warm up shots using lasers, i was so scared lohz. I onli got 6 bullets in out of 10 shots. I broke out in cold sweats. I know i was gonna fail if i continued like this. My instinct told me to use the iron sight that i was unfamiliar with. To my astonishment, the iron sight worked. Btw, i just found out my whole body is damn cocked. Y? Coz i am a right hander, left master eye and left footer. Siao man. From now on, no more guns for me... happy? Not reallie lohz. I like shooting alot. I must master the iron sight!

Another fulfilling event i went thru is the biathlon ba. I was damn satisfied with myself after completing the race. The race consist of a 500m swim + 3km(++) run. My timing was considered average. Can't compare to those swimmers like joshua and matthew. Was quite happy that i din stop at all during the jog. Was down with high fever the nite b4 the biathlon. Thought i had recovered that nite. However, after the biathlon, the fever came back and my sore throat worsened. I had a hard time just swallowing my saliva. My first aid lessons are also officially over... Finally there's gonna be free time again during the nite.

Friday was my sentry too. It was damn boring and tiring lohz. Lucky i partner this nice guy ivan from squad 58. We chatted for the whole nite and share a lot of same interests. We also found a nice place to slack while patrolling... Lolx! The main gate duty was damn stressful. Need to identify the key personnels of TRACOM and salute when necessary. My duty ended on sat morning and matthew took over from me. Poor him ... whole weekend kanna screwed up. And just as i was happy from the changing of duties..... the rain had to come at the wrong moment... Sianzzz.

Rumors has been going ard that the A's results will come out on next fri 4th March. Hope that reallie happens... then i can haf the weekend to think over my future. Hope i can get good results man. Has just decided that if i can get A for Econs, i am gonna opt for SMU.

Arsenal has not been performing at all. Drawed again. Lost to munich on tue nite. Slim chance that gunners can get into the quarters. Chelsea had a lousy week too. Lost to newcastle in the FA cups. Lost to Barca too. Yea~ MANU lost too... Milan Rawks~ Hope Barca wins the champions league!

I wish everyone good luck in ur results for the As. No matter wats the outcome, stay hopeful and optimistic. Its not the the end of the world yet. Gonna book in again as usual. Anyone who feels bored at nite, feel free to call me! Lolx~

7 WeEks LeFt

2005-02-19T04:01:00.000-08:00

This week was kinda slack... full of shootings and tests. My shooting is very inconsistent. Got 44/70 on Tue and 72/100 on wed. Still kinda far from marksmanship. I dunno wats wrong with my technique lohz. Its always like when i rectify one problem, then another problem will crop up. Worst still, my gun malfunction lohz... I pressed the trigger and the bullet din come out. Scared the shit out of me. Sweating profusely. Must really keep myself calm for the next frame.

My T-baton test was conducted on wed nite. I did quite okay for all the other strokes and jabbing except for the support side armlock. Din manage to grasp the right technique. Lucky i had my frens, Iwino and Gerrad, to help me out. My EOC was also conducted on wed morning. Did quite okay for it... clocked a time of 7.28. Still not too bad, i guess.

My drill test will be on next week. Kinda worried that i may not do too well. Seriously, i think i've reallie lost my voice i had in sec 4. My voice is much softer now. My arms r now aching from the push ups from swimming lessons. I think the total push ups that i did during the two swimming lessons are much more than wat i haf done during the confinement. Lolx!

Generally the week has been quite a happy one for me. My squad is getting along quite well. Finally putting some effort into improving foot drill. The law lessons are very enriching too. Sometimes i reallie wonder how time flies... When i started this blog, i was still thinking abt going into police NS... by now, my BPT is alreadi half over. I look forward to 8th April man!!! Those that are free, can come and support me! Coz that day gonna be my Passing Out Ceremony.

This year Valentine's day is another guys' nite again. Felt so lonely when i saw my frens calling their girlfriends on mon nite. So i took up my phone and msg stupid stuffs to pple... lolx. Maybe i shld haf been more true to myself in the past. Shldn't haf used excuses like, " studies more impt now or scouts more impt now" in the past. Now when i open up myself, no one willing to accept me. Pathetic. I promise i wun let the next chance slip away again.

Arsenal beat palace 5-1. Yea~ Henry scored twice and assist one of the goal. Siewz. Was damn happy when i heard the news in PA. Hope tonite's FA cup would be another victory. Those 2 pests MAN U and CHELSEA dun seem to be losing points at all... Damn~ This Tue would be another big challenge for arsenal. Their opponent is no small push over. Gunners, good luck!

8 WeEkS LeFt

2005-02-12T19:58:00.000-08:00

Counting from tml, i haf ard 8 weeks left to POP. No idea where i would be posted to. Hope i can get into OCT despite the slim chance. I flunked fri's IPPT test. Not pull-ups or running... its shuttle run. Damn, first time i get 10.5 lohz. Sianz! But the live shooting in the afternoon was quite a morale booster for me. Managed to improve. Yea~ Felt happy for Erwino and Joshua too. Two weeks ago, we were in the same shoes. But now, we haf all improved.

Next week is full of shootings. Dry practice for 4 mornings. Meaning no PT for that 4 mornings. Got 2 live shootings on tue and wed afternoon. Siew. Then every nite end damn late. Thats the onli sian part. Expecting lotsa fun for next week.

Lost 2 dollars at Soon house yesterday. Not too bad compared to "someone".... Lost double digits. Lolx! Dinner was not too bad. Robbie look very funny now... with his short hair.

Gonna book in later again, sianz. Everyone, take care~

HaPpY CNY!

2005-02-08T10:38:00.000-08:00

It's finally the long awaited CNY. Time to relax for a while.

I feel so tired now... My eyes are half-shut and i am currently half-conscious too. Must be due to the run today morning. Very long and tiring. I think we ran at least 7-8 km today lohz. Panther really noe how to acculmulate PTs man... He's away since last thurs till this mon. So he accumulated 3 days of PTs lohz... But actually felt great after the run. Not too bad la. This fri is my first IPPT test and live shooting 2nd Frame. Must try my best for both. More concerned abt shooting... coz i flunked the first. Feel so irritated abt booking in on thurs nite lohz... damn sianz. Spoil my festive mood. Then fri book out again. Haiz.

Chelsea drawed Man City. Yea! I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone a happy CNY!!!

TiReD

2005-02-06T01:56:00.000-08:00

Haiz, gonna book in again. Sianz man. The weekends always seem so short for me. Next week is quite a relaxing one. Gonna book out on tue afternoon. But damn stupid lohz... must book in on thurs nite, then book out on fri evening. It's such a waste of money to open PA for just half a day. The rest of the guys from tekong can haf a long weekend. So shiok. My new year gonna be disrupted lohz...shit.

Feeling beta after the rest at home. Hope can fully recover by tue. Then can start eating good food and tidbits again. Arsenal beat Villa 3-1. Henry finally scored for the first time in 8 games. Good sign for the gunners. Will be back by tue. So Cya~ everyone.

HeLlWeEk

2005-02-05T05:05:00.000-08:00

This past week was hell for me. First time i felt so weak in my life. My energy was virtually drained off by the constant coughing and flu. I remembered when i booked in last sunday, i coughed till 2.30am before i fell asleep. My throat was literally torn off. Woke up next morning to find myself breathless and in pain(throat). The morning PT that day was hell for me. I felt like fainting lohz. But somehow manage to last through the whole thing without reporting sick. The afternoon PT was worse for me. Gotta piggy-back my fren across 1/2 the field. All the pressure on my back made me really giddy and breathless. Couldn't take it and panther told me to go and take a rest.

Din felt any beta on tue. Throat was really dry and painful. The situation was made worse when i was instructed to gif commands for footdrill. My voice was really affected lohz.... My commands was not as loud as before too. Then caught flu that nite. Coughing din stop. Felt really sick that nite. Got a mild fever too. My boots din make things any easier for me. It started cracking up and i spent so much time just to mend it.

My condition got beta on thurs. The pain was lessened but coughing and flu continued. Defense tech was very fun and enriching. Finally learnt how to swing the t-baton and execute fast draws. First aid lessons were quite boring too. The first-aider was teaching the wrong things. The others were not really serious la, except for joshua and kamal.

Friday was hell day for everyone too. Unresonable pple finding faults with us coz the cat is away. Punished by one guy before booking out. Few hundred of push-ups... sianzzz. Coughing like shit lohz.

Gunners lost to MAN U. Sianzzz!!! Was so shocked when i received the news on wed. The title race is virtually over for gunners. Hope at least can get FA cup this yr. Chelsea may win everything this year too. Even Carling cup. The champion league seems quite impossible for arsenal. Let's just see how MAN U perform this year. Fi... winning arsenal is something great, but winning titles r more important. LOLX!

GeTtInG UsEd 2 LiFe

2005-01-29T19:14:00.000-08:00

This past week has been a boring one. Not much physical trainig at all. Finally managed to fire live shots... but i flunked it. Damn. I was so distracted lohz... The thought of confinement made me feel so lethargic that day. Apparetly, some instructors made a surprise check on my room and found it in an untidy state. It was partly my fault for not ensuring the beds are done... but i feel so F up... Y does everyone ignore my words? As a result, i flunked the shooting test.... Sianzzz man. But heard its not counted in the assessment, so not too bad la. The defense technique session was quite enriching too. Finally learned some attacking stance like jabbing.

Heard next week there's lots of mass cal... sianzzz. There r so many instructors out there waiting for a chance to tekan my squad. Not to say i dun support my FI for "protecting" us, but inevitably, it has brought hatred by other FIs towards out squad. But no matter wat happens... I will still support panther. Was quite disappointed on friday too. The invincible Echo team 2 was defeated by staff of TRACOM in the semi finals of the rugby tournament. I was quite convinced that echo will win lohz... They got the strength and speed. Haiz.

I'm feeling so sick now... Muz haf contracted the sickness from sean or soon yesterday. Those Tekong pple always sick one. Sean is so unlucky man... tio guard duty. Ate at checkers. Food was not too bad, but ex lehz. Went to starbucks after that.... damn song lohz. Ellein got so much discounts for us. I onli paid ard 3.50 for my drink.

Arsenal won wolves 2-0. Yea! Hope this tue nite would be another victory for the gunners against the idiotic MAN U.

OMG!!!

2005-01-22T21:58:00.000-08:00

Can't believe 3 days pass by so fast... i'm gonna book in in a few hours time... ARGH.... Fun time r always the shortest. Sianzzz.... Gonna run run run, drill drill drill again. Can't wait for POP to come soon. Everyone, take care~

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

2005-01-22T05:34:00.000-08:00

Why is everyone laughing at my hair? My hair grow a bit too fast la, wats wrong with that... Those that meet me today just kept on laughing and laughing la... Stupid Joorge.... ARGH!!! Irritating smile. To Samuel too, stop laughing can. Even the employees at toa payoh kbox laughed at me lahz... Bad day to go out today man. But had a good singing session... At least managed to enjoy myself after the confinement.

Dao Jian looks damn fit now. His commando training is real crazy man... stupid circuit training. Junxian looks tough too.... Y am i only the one that looks the "same"? Sianzzz man!!! Muz train up on myself le... ARGH!!! Must book in tml again, sianzzz man.... The outside world seems so wonderful to me now. I Love my surroundings!!!

Heard some very shocking news in the morning... Was quite saddened by it. That piece of news reallie dampens my morale on certain issues. I feel damn sad for those involved too... Y did it haf to happen... Hope all of them can recover from it soon. Smile always!

Rite now, liverpool is being "thrashed" by Saints. I hope they really wake up. Only 2 shots in the first half... Lousy teamwork too... Hope MAN U lose tonite, or else they gonna be 2nd for the time being. Gunners, pls wake up too, can? Everyone, CyA~

I'M BACK!!!!

2005-01-21T04:23:00.000-08:00

Guys, i'm finally back to Earth. It was quite an experience in TRACOM aka Police academy. Where shld i start my long boring acct of PA? Guess i wil go day by day then.

My first day in PA was so damn bloody boring. The worst part is when i heard i'm gonna be confined for 10 days! Shit man! And i really mean shit... I din bring any toilet papers at all. I'm that kind that virtually shit everyday one.... GOne case. Was quite alarmed when the instructors told us to strip upon entering the hall... SIao, like examining pigs liddat. Was kinda sad waving goodbye to my family. But i noe i had to be strong. After the farewell was one long bloody wait. We were in the hall for damn bloody 3 hrs waiting b4 being led to the barbers. At the barbers, i waited another 2 hrs la. SIANZ! Met up with one guy from cjc there. His name is pete. A notorious guy in cjc... LOLX! It was like my hair was gone in split second. Felt so awkward walking out from the barbers. When i look into the mirrors, i was like "WOW"... Is that me? I actually looked younger by 2 yrs old... haha. Then after dinner, i was led to my company, echo... my beloved company. My deputy commander is one indian guy. His name is PANTHER! I really respect him a lot man. He's the guy that motivate me to carry on in PA. I was then led to my bunk. 1 bunk 6 person, 1 toilet, 1 bathing cubicle and 6 lockers. Its not bad a living environment as compared to tekong la... still not too bad. The place was quite nice to slp in too. But something happened on the 3rd day....

My 2nd day was another waiting day. Waiting for equipments was like another 2 hrs? Sianz man. Then wait to take photo too... Was facing the cjc overhead bridge while waiting... feel so damn pissed la.... y din i cherish JC life... Its so good to study. Then on 3rd day.... my company commander Hassan changed our bunks... Initially, i was in the right wing in blk 31... then i was transfered to the left wing... That place is really..... Upon going up the levels, i alreadi felt something was wrong. Y r there scratches on all the doors? And i mean every single door... SOme scratches were even so serious until there were holes on the door.... My door was one of them. Then my fren told me it could be "potianak" at work with long nails... Reallie scared the hell out of me man... Then one guy from squad 5 came and tell us even more shocking news. He mentioned that one of his bunk mate was apparently "attacked" while using the phone late at nite. "Someone" came and banged on the window at 3am... wah liew.... Then when i explored my own room, i found lots of malay kurans around. I was really damn scared lahz. I always thought that i was quite braved... but on that day... i noe i'm not. Then PANTHER told one of my bunk mates that someone actually died in one of the bunks in left wing. That guy was found dead with blood coming out from all the holes of the head. Then those sleeping on the top part of the double decker bed may experience tremendous shakin of the bed at nite. It may become so extreme as to throw the person against the wall above. I was Reallie frightened like hell... I din reallie slept well that day.

From the 4th day onwards... time pass real fast... My OC squad is a very nice guy. The got to noe that PANTHER is gonna be our Field instructor. I was so damn Happy lahz.... He's such a nice guy. He rreallie inspired me to push on lohz... Me considered not that fit inside. My squad reallie fit lohz... Got pple do pull up like do push up. Run on slope as though run on even grounds... Me reallie feel so puny sometimes. But i do haf my strong areas la... me quite an optimistic guy. The swimming lesson was so tiring for me... Nearly got leg cramp... The EOC was quite a joke la... but i shldn't laugh so early. Everyday was running and running.... quite fun lohz... Panther brought us for sight seeing too.... YEA man...

My bunk pple got punished on the 4th day for forgetting to off the lights. Hassan wanted to confine us for 2 weekends... I was damn sad when i heard that. COz i room IC, its part of my fault for the mistake. Two weekends burnt... wah.. damn sianz lohz. Then PANTHER came to our rescue and help us cancel the punishments. Thank him man!!! The days pass by real fast inside... it was like the 9th day in just a split second. Had my arms training that day. The pistol is quite fun to handle. Reallie enjoyed myself. But something drastic happened that day. Some morons actually stole cigarettes from PANTHER. He was so pissed lahz... Wanted to confine us on thurs unless someone own up.

The last day day finally arrived. Got defensive tech in the morning, I was handcuffed and thrown ard... like a criminal. It's no joke man... Damn pain. The T-Baton is quite interesting to play with. PANTHER released us on time... thanks to the person who own up... My 10 days confinement were finally over. Wat i wrote here r just a summary of the experiences i had. There r more to it. Dun wanna be so longwinded.

I really missed all my frens when i was inside.... I wanna meet up with all of u... So feel free to jio me man. YC told me it was hell in TEkong... I guess thats reallie the case. My bro daniel damn bad luck.... going back in tonite... while others r spending their long weekend at home.

Gonna book in this sunday by 9.30 pm. Hope time pass by real slow for these two days. I wanna haf fun!!!

FiNalLy My TurN!

2005-01-10T05:10:00.000-08:00

Tml's my impt day. My turn finally. Can't wait to widen my circle of friends. Decided to keep an open mind. Friends out there, dun worry abt me being wacked up okay? Lolx! I'm gonna miss all of u... Makes me feel a bit sad, knowing that this is gonna be the last time touching the keyboard with my hair still intact. Think i will haf a new look. Still can't imagine myself being botah... Guess u all will not be able to see the old me with side or centre parting anymore. A new me??? Haha... i will just wear a cap when i go out.

Was quite touched when one of my fren send me a goodbye msg just now. Someone actually remembered... I guessed those that will remember are all in army le...Haha... Hope i can reallie come out by this fri... Qizhi, jio me out for Kbox k....

Bought SHE's ENCORE today... Damn nice man!!! Hebe damn chio! But i no DVD player at home lehz, sianz.

Everyone, take care kz~ Keep ur dreams alive... Work towards them!

The brotherhood "split up"

2005-01-09T01:48:00.000-08:00

Heard from Robbie that everyone was posted to different platoons. He got posted to Ninja company. That company is rumored to be one of the scariest company in Tekong. Must keep away from 4th floor. Someone committed suicide there. I wish Robbie all the best man... I shld worry abt myself more. PA is rumored to be even more "evil". Even madam from library warned me abt that place. Guess i shld really watch myself.

Wasted my whole sunday sleeping. Just realised that i was awake today for onli like 3 hrs? I wanted to go IMM to see SHE lohz... no one to pei me. Sianz! I think i will just go and buy their cd b4 enlistment. Then can bring in to listen whole nite. 1 1/2 days left for me...

My tUrN neXt!

2005-01-08T05:30:00.000-08:00

Din hear much from the brotherhood. Onli got one irritatin soon that msg me at 5.45 am to tell me that his hair is still intact! Woke me u from my sleep lohz... How did he do it man? Most prob he smiled at the barber. Frightened him away... That's his usual behaviour anyway. Hope to hear more from them real soon. My turn's next! Just counting down at home, on this lonely weekend. YC they all also go in le... Reallie sianz for me now.

The 7.30pm show, gong fu zu qiu, on channel U is so nice lohz. Its quite funny. Very touching too. Felt so sad when i saw the teammates pass away one by one. Went Kbox with my family today. Was quite fun too. I beta enjoy the last 2 days. PA... i'm COMING!!!

I'm So LoNeLy!

2005-01-07T05:07:00.000-08:00

The brotherhood is going in today... not exactly... its 3/4 of the brotherhood. The remaining 1/4 is still sitting in front of the com, blogging. I FEEL SO LONELY! I miss Sean's crapiness. I miss SUANING soon. I miss Robbie's companionship. Damn, y onli me? Still at home. I bet those 3 must be having a fun time together, in the same bunk. Haiz... Robbie and Sean will continue to suan soon. I'm gonna miss all those fun.

Din send them off coz they r going straight to the ferry terminal. Dun think i can enter without tickets. Went to sch instead. Met Van and Fiona. They r still so lively and fun. The orientation was quite a success. Manage to get 20 persons to sign up. Guess its quite good for library le. Saw a lot of trainees from the PA while taking bus home. I really felt like going up to them and asking them some questions that i haf. But on second thoughts, i guess there's no point. Coz next fri this time, i will be like them. Taking the bus 153 home.

Sang at kbox yesterday with yc, guanzzz, tongzzz, tengda and jackass. Was quite fun. Me and Tongz got real high. Jumping on top of the sofa and shouting like crazy. We all started to kao bei YC. Went a bit overbroad. YC, i'm sorry, kz! Got my kbox membership card le! Anyone on for singing, just jio me. I'm free on the weekends...

SOMEONE PLEASE BRING ME OUT THIS WEEKEND! I"M DYING LE!!! I'M SO BORED...

7 dAys LeFt!!!

2005-01-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

I have approximately 152 hrs 30mins left to enlistment. At this particular time and day next week, i would be sleeping on some unfamiliar bed. I would be meeting new frens, kinda look forward to it. This is life. We have to move forward.

Today's kbox was fun. Finally got more gals to join in for singing. But they dun seem too enthu lehz. Intended to haf duet songs, but the gals just dun even want to touch the mike at all. Haiz... Anyway, it was kinda fun lahz. Not too bad an experience.

Went back to sch after that. I'm really glad that i joined the library society in my JC days. Madam and Mrs Ng treated me real well lohz. I feel so much at home in library. Saw all the library teachers too. They dun seem to change at all. Lolx! Mr ong still looks the same and his sense of humor doesn't fail to amuse me. Mrs Kuah's low voice is still the same. Mrs Tan is still as chirpy as ever. Everyone's the same except the library itself. It is much neater and there r sensors. WoW! Dun believe that Bro would splurge on this kinda stuffs. Went to canteen too. The drinks stall change le. Kinda sad! Those aunties really treated the brotherhood well. I miss them. I MISS CJC!!! I really feel so at home as i enter CJC. DIn noe i love CJC so much till today. Din manage to see those teachers that teached me b4. Think i gonna visit them this thurs when i help out in the library. Even the office aunties seem so close to me lohz... Haiz... Shld haf cherished my JC time. I was always trying to avoid feeling too attached to CJC. Always thinking that i was kinda dumped into this place. But now i truely noe that i love CJC. Its the best place on Earth. Holds my dearest memories.

My brotherhood's gonna go to "Jurassic Park" this fri. Best of luck to them!!! To all my buddies in marist and Scouts, i wish all of u all the best too. My Scout buddies shld haf no prob lahz.... All of ur r president scouts lohz, Tekong shld be chicken feet for u all. I believe all my marist buddies also no prob too!!! Haf faith in all of u all. Let's meet up on the weekend when confinement ends! So cya~ EveryBodY

When's the rain gonna stop?

2005-01-03T01:19:00.000-08:00

"S........, Your enlistment date is on 11/01/05. Your reporting unit is POLICE ACADEMY. Msg from CMPB. If wrong HP pls reply INVALID" this stupid msg apparently woke me up from my sleep. Damn irritating lohz... Why do they haf to cap those two big words? Today is 3rd Jan... That means i haf exactly 8 days left! Beta make good use of it. Guess i will be so damn lonely for this last week. Almost all my buddies will in by 8th Jan. Haiz...Sianz, who is free on this weekend to bring me out? LolX!!! I will miss u guys...

Its been raining for 4 days in a row... When is it gonna stop???

2005

2005-01-01T03:02:00.000-08:00

It's the new year today! Let's start everything anew, everyone. Forget abt those sad moments in the past, look forward to a beta tomorrow. Live for ur dreams...

This year nye celebration in Singapore was not that crowded and fun compared to previous years. Maybe due to the recent natural disaster? All broadcast were cancelled and there were no fireworks. East Coast park this yr was not that crowded this year too. No one seems to be in the mood to celebrate new year. However, i stil find yesterday nite fun. Regretted saying those ghost stories... make Robbie so scared until dun dare go toilet. HM, dun be offended by me for continuing the stories despite u stopping me, kz? Anyway, tok cock the whole nite. Damn irritated by the "highly intelligent tok" by robbie and Sean. Lolx! Soon got so irritated by my singing too... ha...bloody shit guy...think he can onli be entertained by his own "recess" music. Btw, soon is the guy that left a msg sayin "LAME MO". Nuthin beta to write, dun write lahz! Felt so proud for Sean when i hear his journey to success. Ha... Sean, if u r reading this, i just wanna say..."Well Done! Keep up the GOOD work!" And who is the person that suggested buying CHEESE balls? Think i get a bit of sore throat liao.

Let us all do our best in the coming year! Ganbatte Kudasai...

WiShInG EvErYoNe A HaPpY NeW YeAr!!!

2004-12-30T02:45:00.000-08:00

It's gonna be new year in ard 29 hours from now. Many things had happened in 2004. Managed to achieve a lot of stuffs. I hope 2005 would be an ever beta yr for everyone.

Yesterday was full of activities for me. I went to Hougang Plaza Kbox with junxian, weixiong, chun hern, joo kiat and eugene in the morning. It was damn fun as we all really enjoy singing chinese songs. Zhao Chuan's songs r crazy man. Shout like crazy. Never had so much fun singing b4. Went to watch KUNGFU Hustle yesterday with the guys, lly, shiao en, hoiman, mitch and hweeling. The show was damn bloody funny and lame. But i guess those that r not very familiar with chinese may find it kinda boring. Personally, i enjoyed it a lot. Huang Sheng Yi is so pretty lohz... looks kinda like Wang Yu Yan in Tian Long Ba Bu. The whole show was full of martial arts that i haf alreadi read b4 somewhere else. NICE

Had dinner at wraps, it was such a waste of money for me. $7 for something that is not filling at all. If its nice, i dun mind lohz. But its not at all nice lah. Was so hungry for the whole nitez! Shiao En is leaving Singapore soon. Kinda sad. Coz the next time we will see her is results day. Shiao en, if u r reading this, i wish u success in all ya doing, kz! Stay happy. U r one strong person that i respect alot in CJC for these 2 years. Its been real nice knowing u. Keep in contact, kz!

Ok, time to set new goals for my lives le. In 2005, i'm gonna get selected for inspector course in July. I'm gonna be the fittest recruit, most knowledge recruit, marksman and also the BEST cadet in the whole batch of enlistees. I'm gonna make my pay be 4 digits from the start of July. As for my wishes... I hope everyone ard me, family members and frens, will stay healthy. I hope the Earthquake in Sumatra will end early. We shld all pray for the deads of this incident too. I hope my results will be good. And lastly, i hope i can keep my passion burning for these 2 years. Live for ur dreams! .

2 wEeKs LeFt Of FrEeDoM!

2004-12-27T17:44:00.000-08:00

It is exactly 2 weeks from now. The anxiety is building up. Heard from my brother a few days ago that confinement in police has been cancelled. That means i go in on tues and come out on fri nite! ShioK! Those going tekong will still have to go through 2 weeks of confinement. Making things worse, their week has not been reduced to 5 days. Its still the normal 5 and a half day week. Meaning that they book in on sunday nite and book out on sat afternoon. I haf exactly one more day of rest compared to them! Also, PA is damn slack one lohz... Phew, now i feel so relieved to be "dumped" into PA. Wat Mr Ang said was correct too. SAF is not that practical too. Police are the ones that r more practical. They r also given the chance to learn the code of laws of Singapore. Nevertheless, i will still not slack off. I will still aim for the best of the best. THAT'S ME!

Gave my first time to lly and shiao en.... Wat were u thinking man? I went to church for the first time in my life. The people there seem so happy and joyful. They were also very friendly too. Can't even remember how many hands i have shaken that day. Anyway, was there not b'coz i wanna convert or anything. I was there to accompany sean. Also to support LLy and Shiao en. There was this curiosity in my mind that makes me go for this church activity too. It was quite happening and fun. However, i dun think i wanna go another time... LOLX! Christians or Catholics that r reading this now, pls dun be offended ah.

Went to play soccer with my marists frens after a one hour session of kbox with sean after church. Our opponents were some army men. Their skills were damn zai lohz. Fast and forceful. Especially one guy with a knee guard. He makes me think of how Robben plays soccer. Very stable. I had fun too. But i think the most fun is seeing the army men "playing" those... Lolx, not convenient to say in this blog. But all of ur shld noe wat i mean.

The singing yesterday was gd too. I was one big light bulb in the room lohz. Seeing lly and sean together makes me reallie happy. Makes me envious too. Lolx! Haiz, things in life r unpredictabe. Guess i can only find my partner in U le. Sad case. Going to watch KUNGFU with my classmates tml nite. So excited now. My Bro rates it 5 stars lohz. He say the min the show starts, he laughed until the show ends. I believe that really happened lohz. Stephen Chow's movie r all damn hilarious one.

My "BiG BaLls HaMsTeR"!!!

2004-12-24T19:26:00.000-08:00

Hmm, i dun think i need to tell u the sex of this thing here. Its so obvious!!! This is my beloved hamster. Dun reallie noe its age, but he is confirm more than 2 yrs old. Found outside a police post. He really shares a lot of similarities to humans. Haf u ever seen a hamster stretch after waking up and opening its mouth to yawn? Well, this thing above does it. It learns martial arts too. If u want to noe wat i mean, feel free to come to my house and touch him. It likes to stand or two feets too. Dun see him got Big Big balls, he is really swift lohz.

Christmas!!!

2004-12-23T21:39:00.000-08:00

I had a very strange dream last nite. I actually dreamt about one of my classmate going to get married soon, at the age of 18, LOLX! Strange man! Sometimes i reallie wonder how the human brains work. There's no link between my daily life and dream lohz. Its quite freaky actually. I always kanna this kinda strange dreams when i sleep in the living room. Sometimes, i can even wake up in the middle of the night, breathless and speechless. People often call this "gui ya". Believe or not, its all up to u. Went to mark's house yesterday to play. Naruto was quite fun. I'm starting to get the hang of it. But its all in Jap, i will take millions of years just to understand wat the game is all abt. Wat to do, my jap is still considered amatuer. Also, i haven touched jap since last yr dec when i took JLPT 4. My Jap is really getting rusty. Need to do some revision on it with the time left. KUNGFU HUSTLE is finally out! Kept me waiting for so long. I haven watch yet. Was waiting to watch with a certain individual, but he last min "pang seh" me. DAMN! Who's free to go out and watch with me?

Christmas is tml.I'm kinda looking forward to it, but at the same time, wishes that christmas this year will nv come. Y? Coz christmas is just another indication that my enlistment is near!!! 18 days left. How time flies man. I reallie look forward to seeing daniel's botah head this sat!

MY STORY finally out!!!

2004-12-22T04:02:00.000-08:00

Ayumi's new album "MY STORY" is finally out in Singapore!!! I could haf died from all those waiting. The release date was 15th DEC lohz, it took 6 days to reach Singapore. SO lagged! The album is quite nice lahz. The songs are quite unusual compared to the past few albums. Somehow feel abit sad abt the present ayu, i really prefer the old ayu . Nevertheless, i will still support her!

Couldn't access the net these few nites, thats y din update. These few days has been quite fun for me. Finally had a good soccer game on Mon with my Marists friends. Sometimes, a good game can help to vent frustrations and relieve stress. But ah, i'm aching all over now! Especially the legs. Side effects, i guess. Went to sing at toa payoh KBOX with yongcheng, howard and Xiang Kia today. Xiang Kia's singing was damn power... makes me seem so puny beside him, LOLX! Although i'm not really that good at singing, but it can really help to destress. Moreover, its only $7.60 for 3 hours,one drink, lunch included. Where can u find such a good offer man? Anyone wanna go out and sing these few days, just gif me a call. Will be glad to join u!

This year christmas makes me feel happy all of a sudden, dunnoe y too. Maybe its the last christmas before being enlisted. Makes me wonder y i din cherish the past christmas. I wanna go out on christmas eve lohz, dun wanna rot at home. Anyone free to take me out for a walk?

My first entry!!!

2004-12-19T07:33:00.000-08:00

This is my first entry man! Has always wanted a blog. As u can see, in the pic is my beloved hamster!!! Damn cute rite? He's more than 2 yrs old. Found outside a police station. He keeps on sleeping lohz... reallie cannot stand him man! He stinks too.

Went to Xiang Kia bday today. Was quite bored in the beginning, but after qizhi they all came, things started to be more fun. Drank a bit of alcohol,but still doing fine. I am just abt 3 weeks away from my enlistment date. Felt a bit anxious and stressed. Hope i can be selected for the inspector course 6 mths later.

Initiate!

2004-12-18T19:24:00.000-08:00

First post!

Anyway... it is just testing... When for more of my posting, yeah~!