Sleepless nights

The World Cup is really killing me. Look at those panda eyes... My life seems to have just changed to, WORK SLEEP EAT SOCCER. OMG. Wasting my mornings sleeping and creeping out of my bed every night... Can't even cheer out when my team scores(my family sleeping)... eating those junk food that somehow miracously increased my weight... getting headaches from those alcohol and boring soccer matches... and LOSING MONEY. Lucky i am not so ambitious as to bet in three digits or more. Believe the ball is round. No definite results until the final whistle. So far, there are quite a lot of surprises in this WC. Ghana beating Czech. Still can't accept that. All the best to France.

Just had my ORD shoot last tue. Was so nervous and tense during the dry practice. My whole right hand was shaking non-stop throughout. Think its inborn. My aim was simply lousy and off-focus. Was even critised for my gripping and aiming. i was even expected by others to fail. Totally demoralised. Shooting's not my forte man! The wait at the new range was long. Idle mind's a devil's playground. Keep having thoughts of me failing and wat follows after the result. The long wait finally ended after 3 hours as i step into the range. Freaked out. I fired my first 10 shots(practice). 5 holes..... :< Then the real test began. I kept on telling myself to calm down and finish off my rounds. Aim and shoot. No hesitation. Somehow, my confidence grew and i found my momentum. I looked anxiously as my target was brought nearer to me. Positve. $200/- more for next month. LOL. Miracle.

Getting more and more demoralised by my Scout unit. Their totally heck care attitude is driving me crazy. Sometimes i just wonder why i am wasting my time on these bunch of people. Kids nowadays are getting so dependant and "Gu-Niang". Society's prob, as wat our dear derek has mentioned. There's definitely some truth to it. I feel so insecured having the thought that this new generation are the pple that is going to support the country. Ended up shortening my course and spending my time with Daniel and YC. Shopping. Something i nv enjoyed b4.

This yr Father's Day was quite meaningful to me. I wanna say thank you to my DAD for all the hard work he has put in for the family all the years. We enjoyed, suffered and endured together as a family, especially during that period of hardship. I really appreciated it. Thank You.

Had been pondering abt lotsa stuffs. Questions that hold no answers. Tho i haf been trying to hold myself back on certain issues, i realise that i am falling deeper into it. Maybe choosing to avoid them for now would be a good solution. At least for now.

Hope

Finally, the long awaited break has arrived. The past week seemed like a year to me. Its all about work work and MORE WORK. Whenever i was going to leave my workplace, i will be thinking... OMG, i coming back here within 24hrs time. That SUX! That really affected my mood for the whole of last week. Can't think of anything else except to get more rest for the next shift. The rest couldn't have come at a beta time. I'm totally, if not, almost drained off my energy.

Remembered going out with Daniel last sat after my fri nite shift. That must haf been the worst shopping trip i ever had. I was virually dragging my feet all over Bugis. All the things around me seemed so identical. Lol. Must haf dampen Daniel's shopping mood. Met up with WenQian after that. This time, he is really leaving. So sad sia. He's the funniest CHINA man i've ever met in my life. Can't wait to meet him for the last time this fri with the Scouts. Dunnoe when will be the next time i can suan him again. Lol.

Things are finally getting beta with the start of this week. Just received some good news for my family. Everything is slowly changing for the beta. Feeling more relaxed now. Want to thank all those that had showed me encouragement and concern for the past weeks.

I missed going out with the brotherhood. So long since we last met up. A month ago? or was it longer? Hope we can meet up real SOON. Maybe watch world cup together? And toking abt World Cup, i'm just so excited and thrilled by it. Everyone's asking me- who's the favourites? Obviously, it gotta to be Brasil. However, something from the bottom of my heart is telling me to go with Spain... and maybe Ivory Coast. These two teams has so much potential in them. And the favourites everyone is talking abt dun usually win the cup. Like wat Guen mentioned to me last time, think i'm more club tied. I'm supporting every single team that has a GUNNER in it. I'm not gonna miss any of their actions. LOL. But France will still get most of my support...Coz of the KING!

Pulling thru tough times

Let me pull thru these tough times. I can...